"Sometimes I wish for the sweet relief of death," my ruff voice called out. "Other times the sweet relief that I crave so much seems like a burden." I took I deep breath and blew it back out. "I love feeling the buzz. The marks on my body and the decaying of my face and organs are merely troublesome." I smiled to myself slightly. "The drugs. They help me find..." I paused to think of a good word to use. "Serenity."
The soft voice that sounded like venom to me, gently spoke, "Have you ever thought of other ways to.. Self harm?"
I smirked, letting my teeth show. "I used to crave something other than drugs." I paused and looked up at her through my blue fringe. "I used to crave the feeling of my skin being torn open. There was a time that I craved shoving any form of metal I could find into my body. Then I would wait, and stare, and watch as the blood trickled down my body." I looked at my hands. "I would do it anywhere I could. My legs, my arms, my stomach, even my feet and hands." I continued to stare at the permanent indents on my palms.
I looked at her straight in the eye and smiled. She looked scared, I mean after all I had never smiled in front of her. I chuckled, just to scare her more.
"Can I go now? I'd rather go home and get high than stay here and listen to a slut like you."
With that I stood up, grabbed my ripped back, and left the room without another word uttered. I opened the door to the manner and stepped outside. The air was cool and had a nice Autumn smell to it. The rain had just started to die down.
I made my way along streets and across roads. Finally I reached my house. I fished for my green keys in my pocket. After retrieving them and finding the right key, I opened the dark blue door to my house.
I kicked my shoes off and dragged myself up the carpeted stairs. I pushed open my bedroom door and walked inside, making sure to close the door behind me.
I searched through drawers, boxes and a wardrobe before I found what I was looking for. I thought I had finished this?
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Addiction
General FictionWhat happens when addiction takes over your life? Follow Ty's story of addiction as his friends and his girlfriend, Sasha, try to help. Will he survive the journey or die trying?