Dreaming || Malum

S E V E N

'"Sorry guys I wa-"

"No it's okay,we found a new Michael"Luke only laughed pushing Michael out of the way.

"We sing together so well,watch"Ashton laughed as they sang the Chorus of Hey everybod

"Welcome to the band"They joked shaking his hand.

Michael stood a few feet away laughing himself,still a bit confused but couldn't help but wonder if it was that easy to replace him?

-

Calum felt guilty.Really guilty was an understatement.He wanted nothing more but to have Michael beside him.

Although Luke wouldn't admit it,Michael made the band worthwhile.Seeing the boy who was once underweight and self harming become a healthy teenager was honestly rewarding.

But that all went down the drain.

Calum saw the cuts.Most of them.The picture of Michael's right arm had leaked.His left still covered.

Calum was scared.His arm was converted in bruises of all different shapes and sizes and he could even make out a few words.

Those words.

The ones the fans and the band called him.But who knew they would have such an impact on the boy.

Calum could see Michael had clearly lost so much weight that he was now underweight if not severely.

It was clear in him.His jeans were loose and didn't even look like skinny jeans.His sweaters which once fit him perfectly slid down his bruisesshoulders.

Calum could feel his heart breaking even more.He didn't want any of this to happen to Michael

Neither did Ashton and deep down neither did Luke.Even if he didn't admit it Calum knew Luke had some sort of care for Michael.The slightest bit.

Now as they sat around a table,trying to work on their album they couldn't help but wonder how much they really needed Michael.

They say with a blank page in front of them.A page what was supposed to be filled with lyrics.It was only blank.

"why can't we write anything?"Ashton asked shaking his head.Not all the songs on the album were written by Michael why couldn't they write some themselves now.

"I think we need Mi-"Calum's started only to be cut off by Luke

"don't mention that faggot"Luke snarled.

"Luke I think-"

"You don't think anything Ashton.We never needed him and never will need him"

"What's your problem with him anyway Luke .why are you making him suffer"

"Aww is little Cally Wally missing his little fucked up boyfriend awwww"Luke outed before laughing at Calum's expression "that's write I knew about your secret little fling"

"The only reason it was a fling was because you forced us to kick him out of the band.Now look where we are.News flash ,Luke,the world doesn't revolve around you and we actually need him to be a band"

With that Calum stormed out of the room leaving Ashton and Luke alone in an awkward tension filled silence

"That-"

"What Luke you gonna kick him out of the band now too?You might aswell just call it 5 seconds of Luke.I don't know what happened to the Luke we used to know and I definitely don't like the one know"With that Ashton followed Calum.

"He cancelled his sim"Calum told Ashton hanging up the phone.Maybe it was a moment of weakness that he tried to call Michael.

But he needed to know how the boy was doing.Not well obviously.But he wanted to know all the problems so he could help him get over them.

"We'll get him back"Ashton whispered.The two boys looked at eachother before falling into a hug,each starting to cry.

"I miss him so much"Calum sobbed.

"I never wanted any of this to happen"Ashton cried."we were supposed to be a band of 4.Touring the world with each other and we seem to have lost two now"He continued.

They two boys stood in each other's arms not knowing a certain tall
Blonde boy was listening.

He bit his lip.He cause his best friends so much pain.Maybe at that moment he wished he could rewind time.Maybe at that moment he wished he could have been a better person to Michael.Maybe a better person in general.Maybe at that moment he though of inviting Michael back.Maybe at that moment all the hate went away.

-

"Come on,Michael please"

Michael only pushed away the bowl before running back to his room.He had eaten so much.

Maybe Michael started a new habit that night.Maybe Michael sat I front of a toilet with a sick smile.Maybe Michael found a solution to not make anyone notice.

-

But maybe it didn't work well.Three weeks after Michael started he got seriously sick because of the lack of nutrients in his body.He was bed bound.Barely able to move his hand.

He lay on a bed covered with sweat and puke,heaving slightly.He wanted to call for John but he just couldn't.

"Oh mikey"He sighed.he walked over to him slowly peeling back the covers.Michael immediately curled up into himself.

"Come on,we gotta get you into the bath"Michael was picked up from under his legs,making him whimper.

"What are we gonna do with you"Feldy mumbled when Michael was sitting weakly in the bath.

His head continuously fell forward,John having to gently put it up again.His body slumped,barely responsive.

"I know you've been throwing up your food,Mikey"John said causing Michael to tense up."you need to gain weight,whether you like it or not.I shouldn't be able to almost fit my whole hand around it.I shouldnt be able to see your ribs perfectly.There shouldn't be such a huge gap between your stomach and your leggings because of you hip bones.You're cheeks shouldn't be that hollow.You need to gain weight"

Maybe Michael just faded away even further into a sea of swirling numbness,where the only feeling he felt was heartache.

Maybe Michael had become unresponsive completely,staring at a wall.

Maybe Michael swallowed little happiness and shut his eyes and wouldn't wake up for John,his porcelain canvas painted with crimson paint.

Maybe Michael was hospitalised.

Maybe Michael hit rock bottom.

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ITS GOING FASTUUURRR
So you got the boy's side more then michaels here

So opinions?