Dear phil

XI

Dear Phil

It's been two days since
I last wrote in this book
And today I kissed you.
Not just on the cheek or
Forehead but I kissed
You. We were stood in
The kitchen waiting
For the kettle to boil
And trying to decide
On what to have for
Breakfast when our
Bodies touched as
You reached For a
Mug for us both and
I couldn't help myself.
I've always been a
Little Impulsive when
It comes to my feelings,
I think my wrists can
Prove that,but this was
A different kind of impulsive.
This wasn't hurtful
Or damaging it felt like
Sweet relief,it made me
Feel free. The kiss was
Soft and tender,both of
Us scared to move too
Suddenly not wanting
To scare the other away
Like a startled deer.
You held my hips and
Pulled us closer while
I rested my hands on
Your cheeks warm from
Blushing so hard.
We broke away after
What felt like a lifetime
And I found out something
About myself today. I want
To live in the moment
Just before a kiss,the sweet
Tension,longing stares and
Sweaty palms were all so
Beautiful and I want to
Live in that moment with
You forever Phil. After
Our kiss we smiled at
Each other and hugged,
Our hands trying to pull
The other as close as possible
Not wanting to leave any
Space between our bodies.
You told me you had wanted
To do that for so long
And I told you that we would
Share plenty more just before
Stares.
I really am getting better now
All thanks to you.
I'm so in love with you Phil.

Dan