Dear phil

XII

Dear Phil

Today marks exactly one
Month since I last took
A blade to my skin,30
Whole days. I no longer
Call my scars art. They
Are not art,they are a
Harmful reminder of
All the things the ghosts
Made me do and art is
Worth so much more
Than a lonely boy
Trying to make sense
Of himself. I've had some
Bad days but you were
There for me,just like you
Always are. We were
Talking about Heaven last
Week and I said if it's real
You'll definitely be there
And you asked 'what about
You?' I didn't know how to
Respond because once I
Heard that taking a life
Is a crime even if it's your
Own so I'm not sure if I'll
Make it to heaven but I
Promised you that I'd never
Try to take a life again
Because I don't want to
Take the risk of spending
My after life without you.
I'm so so much better now
And it's all because I'm in
Love with you Phil

Dan