Graceless

Graceless 27

On Monday we had school again. I was already over school by then.

I wore black leggings and a tribal print blouse. My fringe boot moccasins. I had my hair braided. I put on some maybelline mascara. I had a clear phone case with aliens on them. I also had my glasses on. I had my orange and blue Vera Bradley backpack and u was ready to go!

I walked downstairs to see the magcon boys laying around.

"Good morning beautiful!" Hayes said running over to me. I smiled with no teeth and waved.

"Hey" I said very quietly. I walked into the kitchen and made me some toast with Nutella. I sat in silence eating it. I then ran out to the bus stop, my own personal stop. I stood there quietly. Then I got on the bus to see my friend Lauren. She was super happy to see me but I was feeling sad and tired today  so I sat by myself.

I went on my phone and made sure no one say with me. And when we got to school I went straight to my locker. I didn't wait for any of my friends. But Bryce and Logan caught up with me.

"Hey grace I heard what happens I'm sorry for your parents." Bryce said. I just rolled my eyes.

"Don't be sorry." I mumbled. Bryce was going to say something but Logan stopped him.

"Do you want me to go to your locker for you?" Logan asked.

"No. I'm a strong independent white woman. And I don't want to be babied because my parents just divorced or I had a major anxiety attack at dinner on Saturday." I said stopping and yelling at Logan. He just nodded and we all went to our lockers.

When I got to my locker all the popular boys were surrounding it because all the popular boys were in this row. They all waved and tried to make conversation.

"Could you please move away from my locker?" I asked standing in front of Morgan ryskoski, one of the most popular boys in school. He stood in front of me with his hands on his hips.

"I don't know can i?" He said laughing, and he got the rest of his buddies to laugh too. I just rolled my eyes at him.

"Morgan could please just move away from my locker." I said again, getting frustrated. He just stood in front of my locker smirking with his hands on his hips.

And we kept doing it over and over again. Until I finally got so frustrated I started shaking and got my anxiety again. Which made me cry.

"What's your issue?" Morgan said laughing.

"No there's something actually wrong with her I think you guys." Ryan said.

"WELL WHAT DO YOU THINK! I WAS JUST RECENTLY INFORMED MY PARENTS ARE GETTING DIVORCED AND NEITHER OF THEM ARE HOME AND I HAD A MOHOR ANXIETY ATTACK THE OTHER AND NOW IM HAVING ANOTHER ONE AND YOU CAN THANK MORGAN FOR THAT BTW AND BOW EVERYONE IS TREATING MY LIKE A SMALL CHILD OR THEY ARE BEING TOTAL DICKS LIKE MORGAN HERE!" I screamed, I didn't care if people were staring. I then took my backpack off and slammed it on the ground. I sat down along with it. And my fists were clenched.

My squad were trying to help. And the teachers were trying to help. But then finally Evan walked over to me.

"Hey Gracie its me Evan. You're going to be okay. So just quiet down and shhhh shhhh." Evan said holding my fist. I then started to calm down. "Okay now you're going to get up and open your locker okay. Then Morgan here will bring your stuff down to your homeroom." Evan explained quietly and calmly while helping me up.

I got to my locker and opened it. I then took out my phone and went to the camera to see my mascara was smeared and my face was all red.

"I can't go out there like this. I look disgusting!" I whined and sniffled. Evan then turned me to him and wiped my hair from my face.

"Gracie you look beautiful." Evan said. Slowly. I just rolled my eyes.

"Okay that's great but you telling me that doesn't help." I said. Evan nodded then looked around at everyone around. He then ran and grabbed a few different people.

Then standing in front of me was Morgan, Alex Bartley, Chloe Jaeger, Nora from my squad, and jayda lenz.

"How do you think Grace looks today?" Evan asked them.

"I think she looks absolutely beautiful." Nora said taking my hands. And we smiled at each other.

"Grace you look stunning today." Jayda said taking one of my hands from Nora.

"Grace you look beautiful, as usual." Chloe said taking my other hand from Nora.

"Grace you look gorgeous."  Alex said taking both my hands.

"Grace you look extra lovely today." Morgan said, putting emphasis on the word extra. By now I was tearing up and my smile was as big as ever.

I then turned to my locker and grabbed everything and setting it on top of my locker. And Morgan went to grab it. But I put my hand on his arm stopping him.

"Morgan it's fine you don't really have to do that." I said.

"No but I feel like I need to!" He said. He then turned to me and hugged me. My eyes got big in confusion and I furrowed my eyebrows.

"Okay. Well, I need to go to the ladies room to freshen up." I said shimmying out of the hug. Morgan nodded as I walked away.

As I walked to the bathroom the girls of my squad joined me.

"Here borrow some of my mascara." Iris said handing me a tube of mascara. I smiled and watered a paper towel and wiped my smeared mascara off my face. I then applied the mascara that iris have to me.