Looks Are Deceiving

Chapter One

Early update, I finished this at two this morning and it is now 7.11 am on Tuesday December 1st in Western Australia. I hope you guys enjoy and I will try to update next chapter as soon as possible xoxo Nicola_Joan

When I was growing up before everything started (so the first five years of life) I believed that fairy tales and happy endings were what happened to everyone. Now I know for sure that's not true. This isn't the normal cliché 'book of life' where a girl finds who she really is and finds the one she loves and lives happily ever after. No that's not what this is. This is pain and heartbreak and a lot more. Like I said before everyone believes I am happy, but I'm not. For fourteen years I was strong for twelve years I was bullied by girls, boys and my family and for most of that time I believed that no one cared that I would die alone with no friends and no one who loved me, but then at the start of the year, I meat Myra. She was beautiful and walked right up to me, a smile on her face and she introduced herself. From that day on we were just about inseparable, she introduced me to Kainda and Oskar who also became my best friends. From that they introduced me to the small group of people I hang out with. (Jacinta, Rain, Boe, Dani, Sam, Shane, Caine, Lukas). They all know of the bullying, which was only small things like ugly, stinky, fat etcetera when it first started but is now pushing, hitting, kicking, pranks, bad names (slüt, cünt, bîtch, stuff like that) and blaming me for stuff I wasn't even present for. I have gotten used to it though, I learned to block it out, same with everything at home, I block that stuff out as well. I shut of my emotions most of the time and just go numb, but sometimes I am genuinely happy, but those are very rare moments. So after fourteen years of strength I gave up, I stopped eating, but missed food to much, so I binged then purged. I began to cut myself, and suicide is almost always on my mind. And so we begin.

On February 2nd 2015, school at Celeste High started for another year, Year nine (Yay! *heavily sarcastic*) the year where it gets real. I did what I normally did every day of high school, I went to my locker to find a bad word on my locker, ignored it put my books away and got ready for form. I sat down at the very back of the class and I started to ready my favourite book series-The Hunger Games-for the millionth time like ever. I was reading Catching Fire (I already finished reading Hunger Games) when Alison (the most popular bitch in school) pushed me out of my chair, I landed right on her boyfriends, Troy's, foot. "Get off me slut I might get infected" he pulled his foot back and kicked me in the stomach. And let the 'fun' begin. The bell for first period went and we all got up, I got punched in the arm, but I didn't see who did it. Then a group of girls I walked past tripped me sending me and all my papers on the floor. I saw someone walk up and help me pick up the papers. I looked up and saw a gorgeous face."Hi, I'm Myra im new here and I was hopeing that you could show me around" she told me with a big smile on her face. I couldn't tell if it was real or not. But I'm not stupid, they have done this to me a lot. I have fallen for it enough.
"Amelia. But I can't show you around d sorry, it would take way to long its such a big school and trust me you don't want to be my friend. Thanks for helping me but I really need to get to class" I answered back and quickly grabbed my papers and left before she could answer.
I got through the whole day without running to the toilets and breaking down, at the end of the day I made the long walk home. I was about to walk off school grounds when Myra and two other people came up to me, one a boy and the other a girl, they guy was tall and handsome with a small smile and a hit of mischief in his eyes. The girl was a bit shorter than him and had crazy curly hair and a smirk, she wasn't fat but she wasn't skinny, she was very curvy, unlike me.
" Amelia, these are my friends Kainda and Oskar. We know you get bullied and we want to help" Myra spoke with a soft voice a bit of sadness in her eye.
"How could you help me?" I asked her
"In anyway we can, be it standing up for you or just emotional support" the guy Oskar answered for her. The moment I heard the voice I was hooked. He was cute and seemed nice.
"Myra maybe we shouldn't help her, she obviously doesn't want to talk about this so there is no point" Kainda said to Myra just loud enough for me to hear. Myra turned to Kainda with a scarily calm look.
"Are you trying to imply that she is a lost cause? Cause if I remember correctly I thought the sane about you and I never gave up. Plus you don't know her she could be masking it Shut Up And Leave Her ALONE!" Myra replied raising her voice, Kainda just sized her up and when Myra was shorter she didn't stand a chance so she back down. I was definitely impressed.
"Look I really love that you guys want to be my friends but I have never had friends before so I'm gonna have to think about this, sorry" and I took off running all the way home so that I wasn't too late. Unfortunately I was a minute late, and Dad noticed. Then again he always notices when I EFF up.
"Hey Luca look who's late home!" He yelled up stairs to my brother. I heard my brother door slam open and a set of footstep pounding down the stairs.
"Well, well, well, look who finally came home, what's the excuse this time, some girls tried to bash you up again, I mean I would blame them but, I know its not true because you just love to make excuses"
"I'm sorry, these people stopped me and I tried to get away but they surrounded me, I told them I had to get home as soon as possible and they didn't care, I promise it won't happen again, I ran here as fast as I could please" I mumbled really fast, but I knew they heard me because I felt and heard a crack, I spun into the wall, I don't know if it was Dad or Luca who hit me but the pain coming from the left side of my head was unbearable. Everything went fuzzy, the room was spinning and I couldn't hear anything clearly, it all sounded very far away. I saw Dad and Luca come towards me with hatred in their eyes, Dad raised his fist and slammed it into my stomach, I doubled over in pain, I felt a kick to my ribs and heard the front door open. I saw my mum scream at them and faintly heard it, but before anything else happened I passed out.
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I woke up in a room I recognize way too much. I'm tied to the hook on the roof, my clothes are off, and I look around to see that my brothers favourite knife set spread out on a wheel table. I can't see Luca or Dad, I look to the two way mirror knowing that someone is in that room. The door opens and Luca walks in.
"Hey Sis, I see you finally woke up" he says as he walks over and picks a Hand made fighting knife made from bayone. Its his favourite of his set (Early hand made dagger, Early Heinze Dagger with Acorn Cross guard, Theater made fighting knife cut down Jap bayonet, Theater made fighting knife out from coin casing and file, Portsmith Navy Yard Hand made fighting knife, Hand made Unmarked fighting knife, Hand made Unmarked fighting knife, Hand made fighting knife made from bayone) he brought the set a few years back and used them all the time. Its only the first day back and I have already fucked up. I'm so stupid. Luca approached me with knife in hand, he presses it against my ribs and the knife glide over my skin, I scream from the pain. Luca gives me a sadistic smile and laughs at my screams. He grabs my left leg, does a long cut down my thigh to my knee, I continue to scream, he let's go and put down the knife, he take off his shirt and his pants along with his briefs, he walks up to my crying figure and spreads my legs so that one is around his waist and the other is lifted off the floor slightly. He roughly pushes into me and continues to make rough strokes as I scream and beg for him to stop. I feel his seed being released inside of me and feel sick. What did I do to deserve this family. Luca left the room and left me there, I cried for what felt like forever before dad came in and took me down.
"Get dressed slut then go to bed!" He shouted at me and left the room. I shakily put on my clothes and went to my room. I cried my self to sleep, contemplating my life, wondering what would happen if I died. Then just before I fell asleep. I decided to become friends with Myra, Kainda and Oskar. With that thought in my head I fell asleep. I dreamed of a happy life and a normal family where I was really happy, not where people just think I am