Yeah. So like midnight it's really good and it really is making me think like wow and I m just gonna type whatever I want.
But like, I wonder sometimes why am I so depressed? Like I have loving parents. I have food, I have a roof over my head. But idk and
I don't know
I feel like I'm gonna cry
And I'm just so sad right now and I want to harm myself so badly but I know I shouldn't so I'm not. But I just really don't know and this chapter is going to be horrible but sometimes I just need to let my feelings out. But like- I don't know how to say this without sounding like well I don't really know so in just not gonna say it. But again I'm sorry. Fuck. I don't even know what I'm saying sorry for but idk in just sorry and I wanna listen to sad songs but I didn't grab my head phones and I'm just so sad and I wanna just fucking strave myself so badly cause I need to lose weight. I need to look pretty, I want to look pretty and just again I don't know. I'm just done with life and I just really don't care anymore. But I care so much. But sometime bad could happen to me and I just wouldn't care. I'm just so done with everything and just I don't know. I just don't know. I don't know anything but I know a lot of things. I. I just ugh. I'm sorry. I'm just really sorry and I don't know why in saying that but I feel like I need to so just I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. And I mean it. I just. I don't. No. I don't know. I really don't and ugh. Just my life and like everything and myself and I just really hate myself. Like a lot. I just- I'm so sorry
Victor
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