Chasing Dreams - An Auslly Story

Girl talk

Ally POV:

Trish and I were having a girls night, because she was leaving in a little over a month.

"So...what did Jay do when he pulled you behind the waterfall?" Trish asked sounding excited when we were finally alone.

"He asked if he could kiss me," I paused,"But I didn't feel comfortable with it yet, or I didn't want to kiss him. I don't really know..." Trish raised her eyebrows.

"Do you think maybe you have stronger feelings for someone else...?" She said as if she was implying something. I shook my head. "No, that's not it."

Trish rolled her eyes. Was she trying to make me say I liked Austin? Because I don't. And if I had the slightest bit of mixed feelings towards him, it wouldn't affect Jay and I.

But why did I resist kissing him? Why do I keep doing things I wouldn't expect myself to do and think things I wouldn't expect myself to think? Ugh.

"Umm... Ally? Hellooo?" Trish said waving her hand in my face. I realized I had zoned out and apologized. "What are you thinking about?" She asked.

I looked down at my hands. "I don't know, I keep surprising myself."

"What do you mean?"

"Well, I keep feeling things I shouldn't around Austin and thinking about him too much. It's bothering me and I just keep catching myself doing it. I don't know how to stop!" I frowned looking back up at Trish. She was smiling.

"Have you ever thought that maybe you liked him, but you're just denying it to yourself?" She asked putting an arm on my back like we were in some sort of counseling session or something.

"Yeah, I've thought of that...but I-there's Jay and-but he-ugh." I couldn't get out the right words. My mind was buzzing. It felt like there were a bunch of puzzle pieces scattered everywhere and none of them fit together.

Trish started rubbing my back. "I think you like Austin." I shrugged. She seemed to know more about me than I did as strange as that is.

"If you ever decide you want him, I can tell you this. He diffidently likes you and he cares about you. He'd be the best boyfriend ever to you."

"Wait, you think Austin likes me?" I was surprised.

"Duh! Today at the pool when you and Jay went behind that water fall, he came over to Dez and I looking really upset. I comforted him a little, but it didn't help much. Ally, he's totally liked you for a really long time."

I thought back to when Austin and I wrote our first song together and our hands accidentally touched on the piano. Austin looked up at me and blushed like crazy. Maybe Trish is right...

But then when he thought I liked him because he looked in my songbook, he flipped and did everything in his power to make me 'unlike' him. Maybe he was in denial just like I am right now. Maybe Austin and I have both liked each other sense day one.

But that can't be because I haven't liked him sense day one. Duh, Ally. I don't even like him now so double duh.

See what is up with me and my weird thoughts? Ugh.