Troubled

Chapter 14:'Really is a Bitch'

Harri POV

I woke up to a beam of light shining through the window. Violet must already be awake I thought to myself because she is always the first to get up but I could also hear her in the shower. As I sat up I realised I was still in the same clothes as last night. So my dress was all creased. Perfect. My hair was a complete mess but who's isn't in the morning or afternoon for that matter,  With that I grabbed some clean underwear, jeans , tank top and made my way to the bathroom waving at violet who had just came out with a towel wrapped around her slim body.

When I returned from my morning shower. I had noticed that my bed was stripped of sheets, the pile of clothes at the end of my bed was gone and replaced with a note in curly handwriting ' gone to the laundry room , Violet x' I love how every single girl has to put an 'x' at the end of everything they write. I love how Violet is so caring and sweet, and how she looks after both of us as a parent would. She is so considerate. She doesn't have to do what she does. I never asked her. But she just does it. I can't help but be so thankful of Violet. I need to do something special for her to say thank you.

I went over to the sock draw to pick a pair of socks its also nice how Violet pairs and rolls them up ,making life so much easier on the mornings. I sat on my bed to put my socks on that's when I realised I was utterly alone. With nobody else in the room. I suppose I could go and find Faye but after the last time 'Ew no gross'. I'll make my way over to 'L5'.

I stood outside in the completely silent sleeping corridor. I knocked on  the door labeled L5 waiting for a reply. Until I heard "it's open" yelled from the other side. I walked in to see Finley throwing up into a bin and Jack lying in bed in the same place I left him in. I made my way over to him waving at Finley on the way he just looked up from the bin, smiled before entering more content into it. I stared into Jacks sleeping face and shuck his shoulder repeatedly saying "good morning sleeping beauty get up." After the fourth time his eyes started to flutter open. I just thought to myself 'there is life'. Jack stared mumbling some word which sounded like "shut up , my head hurts, what time is it?" I answered to this by saying in a whisper " it's 12:30pm, would you like a coffee maybe?" He rubbed his eye yawning and just said "one sugar" and then a voice from behind me said "me to" I got up with Jack saying "could you come back in a nurse outfit that would make me feel a lot better" he winked at me with a smirk plastered on his face I smirked back at him "sorry to disappoint you but I don't own one." He laughed at this and I laughed to them we just smiled at each other goofily until I turned around out the dorm "I'll be back with your coffee Mr Anderson and yours Mr Hallow" I said in a silly posh accent getting a laugh from both of them.

I returned from the cafeteria with two mugs of coffee in my hand and passed one over to Finley who had recovered from earlier. I walked over to Jack who was now sitting up in bed and handed him his coffee "one sugar" I smiled as he took the mug out of my hands. After they had both finished their coffee and finally got over the hangover they both got dressed to go to breakfast Finley was finished first and couldn't wait so he went ahead while I waited for Jack to finish up. "So did you have a good time last night?" I asked as Jack started rubbing his wet hair with a towel he looked up at me and smiled "yeah well you know I enjoyed everything that I can remember "  I nodded at his response  He carried on drying his hair "I don't really remember that much , all I can remember is drinking and being pushed in a shopping trolley. What was that all about anyway?" My mouth turned into a smirk as I tried to hide my laugher but it I failed "I have no idea" Jack have me a wide eyed look but That only made me laugh more I covered my face with my hands and tried to calm myself down I was laughing so much I was almost crying. "What did I do?" Jack asked sounding worried. "Oh nothing really you just let slip who you love, you know the usual." He dropped the towel and looked straight at me "do you remember what you said?" Trying not to have another laughing fit. He shook his head at me "n-no" I gave him a smirk and walked closer to him with only a small gap between us.i looked up at him still smirking "well in that case your secret is safe with me"I said in a whispered tone.

I'm not going to lie it hurt knowing that Jack had kissed me and didn't remember and it's what I was afraid of happening but if he doesn't remember then we can just carry on as normal and not do the whole 'oh no it's so awkward because we kissed but one has feeling and the other doesn't'. Anyway I don't need Jack he is just a boy. A very gorgeous boy that you don't need but want. Why do you always have to counter argue everything. I stopped having my mental war when Jack asked me "did you enjoy your first troubled party?" I hesitated before answering his question. I enjoyed myself I suppose. I guess the morning after really is a bitch but its different for all not everyone wakes up with a hangover some people wake up with their heads filled with problems and unfortunately that was me and I would give anything to have woken up with a hangover instead of my stupid feelings and emotions. "Yeah."
That was all I could say. I didn't look at Jack instead I looked at the very interesting pattern on the carpet. "Would you like to go again?" No. Is what I should have said but my brain didn't want that apparently "yeah" I said still looking at the carpet. Jack sighed, put his fingers under my chin and gently moved my face up so I could see his worried and confused look "what's wrong beautiful?" I remembered the words he had only said last night and closed my eyes letting out a deep breath and then reopening my eyes to look into Jack's  I wanted to tell him, but I couldn't let myself get hurt by him. I couldn't tell him how I felt or about the kiss because i was too afraid of getting rejected or hurt. I just need to push all the feelings away, maybe have a few days away from him. Just forget it and move on Harri your being stupid. "Nothing" I smiled "let's go and get breakfast I'm starving" Jack smiled back at me but I don't think he was convinced so I quickly made my way out of the door to avoid any more questions "RACE YA!"