Graveyard Girl (Bridge to Terabithia Fanfic)

Missing You {rewritten}

Jess' POV

I still couldn't wrap my head around what happened. When I arrived home, I said nothing to anyone. My mom looked worried, my sister didn't care, but I didn't want to nothing.

My eyes were still round and wide, but in them lay nothing. I couldn't function properly, and it all seemed like one terrible deja vu. I tried my hardest to block it all off. I saved her. Maybe I didn't do anything superhumanly but, she's alive. Alli's alive and I should be celebrating. God, I should be crying of happiness. Alli, my best friend, is fine. And she remembers me. Of all people, me. This is a happy time. The news spread that Allison Sophia Klepton defied death. And she did, God, by all means she did.

But why do I feel so empty?

My face was monotonous and I stared blankly at the window. Why am I not crying? Why am I not smiling? Why am I not feeling? Something, anything, please my body needs emotion.

But nothing.

Only one thing replayed on my mind.

Leslie.

Recalling her name feels so good.

I feel nothing but a dark, empty void and space.

May Belle crept up to me and started poking me.

"Hey, Jess." "Hey, Jess." "Have you heard about Alli? "Jess. JESS. JESS. JESS."

"Leave me alone." I spat at her, running up to my room.

My feet stomped on the ground like a child and my hands began to shake. They shook and shook and slowly, the lacking wave of emotion started drowning without warning.

My eyes watered and I slammed the door, sliding my back against the door.

Then I cried long and hard.

I held onto the carpet and the emptiness in my chest began to trap me in my own jail. My bottom lip quivered and my tears turned hot, they rolled faster and faster down my cheeks. I calmed down and opened the chest I had locked up for ages. I flipped through old photographs of us. With P.T, up in the treehouse, with life in our eyes. I've forgotten how bright she always was. I stared a photo of us racing down the praries. She looked back at me with such thrill in her eyes, and the way I looked back at her, only fool wouldn't know I was crazy for her.

But she didn't.

And I realized it's not Alli making me feel this way, it's her. Leslie. The forgotten soul of the queen of Terabithia.

I miss her so much, it created hole inside me. A hole no one can fill.

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rewritten bc suckiness