In Our Crazy Minds ( IOM Series:Book 1) (Completed)

What Happened? -Audrey-

*Edited*

Bay's 8th grade style-  http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=183384220

Audrey's 8th grade style- http://www.polyvore.com/audrey/set?id=183380071

"Riker 8th grade was a really bad year for Bay and I" I tell him.

"What about Ryan?" Riker asks holding my hands as we sit on the bench at the mall. I look up into his eyes and I see him confused, curious and for the first time scared.

"Ryan was a source of the problem" I say remembering it like it was yesterday when really it was about 9 years ago. "Riker that's why I always talked to you most of the time, because of what had happened" I say shaking in Riker's embrace as he rocks me a bit...

"It all began with one lie, a fake horrible lie" I say getting tears to my eyes.

"Auds if your not ready to tell me I can wait" Riker says holding my hand.

"Thanks Riker, but I want to tell you so that way I don't live with guilt" I say and kiss his cheek. "Okay so that was the year I met Bay  and she loved R5 and her and I became close friends, we also met this guy Ryan. He was really nice to us until we found out that he self-harmed..

I was whispering into Bay's ear about something and the girl in front of Bay thought we were talking about her and her friends. Well then we explained everything to her and she still thought we were talking about her and her plastic and pathetic friends. So they came up to me and said 'if I had anything to say to them then say it to their face'. So me being myself I said 'this is stupid'.

 They got all ticked off and started bitching at me. So I got mad and punched Emma in the face because she was bitching at me too. Then they all got mad and stormed away. The next day our friend Jamie was hanging out with them and getting info and telling us what they were saying but we never asked her to do it, she just did it. She told me if I kept talking about them they would fight me.

 And I laughed because all of them verses me and my friends they don't stand a chance. I thought Jamie told them how I reacted when she told me that. So at lunch that day I searched for Jamie and blew up on her. When a week later in 7th period I get called down to the dean's office. I went downstairs to the Dean's office seeing 3 of the plastic friends there.

 They asked me my side of the story and I told them what we were talking about and how the girls had misunderstood. I also admitted to punching Emma. The girls then told me that Ryan told them everything about me. I found out there in the Dean's office. I tried so hard not to cry but as soon as I left that office I cried, cried and cried. That's when I texted you that I needed you and you showed up at my doorstep 2 hours later. That's why I was crying then.

 I confronted Ryan about it and he had no clue what I was talking about. I questioned he and I's friendship after that... I could trust him with some things, but not with things I trusted you about. The next day I told Bay you came over because I knew she wouldn't tell a soul. Then the stupid plastics came and heard me talking about you... They said 'I was pathetic to think that someone like you could ever know me and how I'm not good enough for you, I don't deserve you and everything that I say about you was just my thoughts'.. Everything I dreamt about you was completely shattered by them. I always thought about you Riker. They said you were one of my lies, One of my fantasies, one big fat lie. They also were gonna pay an investigator to talk to you to see if you really knew me. So I told them to put their dirty, rotten money where their mouth was. 

Cause if they were rich and if money does that of the so called need, necessary item of a life essential." I finish saying and tears are flowing out of my eyes like a waterfall I look up at Riker. I meet his dark hazel eyes and his cheeks have a few tears on them. I put my hands to his face and cup his cheeks and wiping away his tears he does the same to me. We then look into each others eyes and peck each others lips but I was still crying so the kiss was salty and wet.

 He pulls away and pulls me close to him.

"Auds, listen to me never ever let yourself think that you're not good enough for me, or that you don't deserve me" Riker says his voice shaking.

"Riker I'm not enough for you and I never will be" I say. "I'm just the girl that you've known since I was born, I'll never be enough" I say my voice cracking.

"Baby your just enough for me, yes I've known you since you were born but it doesn't mean I don't love you" he says his voice shaking.

"I love you too Riker but-" he doesn't let me finish.

"Audrey Marie Blake I love you and NOTHING will EVER change that, you hear me" he says a little too loudly making people stop and look. [In this book R5 isn't really that popular so not many people know who they are].

"Little to loud Riker" I say wiping a tear away.

"Well, Audrey whenever I was away from you I wished and thought about you" he says. "And I've always loved you" he says.

"Riker I will ALWAYS love you" I say and smile. We then see Bay and Rocky so we wave them over.

"Ohh woah what happened here Bay says referring Riker and I's tears.

"I just told him the 8th grade story" I say to Bay and her eyes water slightly and she puts her face into Rocky's shoulder and cries as he holds her. We were all crying in the mall.

"Let's wipe these tears and get some Mac and Cheese" Rocky says making us all laugh.

Well I hope you guys liked this chapter. If you haven't guessed already it's Audrey writing this chapter. What do you think of Audrey's bullying story [ Its actually real except for the parts where I punch Emma I'm too nice to do that]. Well anyways GN!

Love you, Stay awesome Audays

Audrey