feelings and emotions

Chapter 4

Nia's POV:
Jas looked broken. Her reaction, her face, her body looked lumpy. I didn't know what to do. I grabbed her by the arm and took her somewhere else. She rejected him though, I don't know why she seemed like that. Unless, she actually likes him. I highly doubt it, it's probably about Erica. Ugh that stupid bitch. The way she's made Jasmine feel for a few years. All because of a jacket? The fuck? I saw Crawford walk by and I almost ran Jas into a wall to she moved to the side.

"Nia!" She laughs. I got her to smile again.

"Good, you're smiling. Anyways, what was that about?"

"I just got distracted by Erica." She looks down. I couldn't tell if she was lying, which surprised me because usually I can tell the difference. "So do you really like Crawford? Or is he just hot?"

I honestly didn't know how to answer that. Crawford may be a playboy like Chris, but he was sweet. He makes it seem like he actually cares. Plus, he was hot.

"I think.. I like him." I make a tiny smile.

"Oooo let's go sister, yes!" I laugh and we high five. Her reaction was so completely different then I expected. Then, her smile faded, probably because she realized what I just said.
But about Crawford, I just have to find a way to talk to him. Then all of the sudden I feel a tap on my shoulder.

"Hi." It. Was. CRAWFORD!!!!! What is this? It's probably about the English homework since we have the same class, thank god.

"Hey, what's up?" I ask. My hands were sweaty.

"I just wasn't paying attention during English, what was the homework?" I knew it. He smiled. His smile will, one day, be the death of me.

"Oh, yeah of course." I laugh and show him what we are supposed to do for homework.

"Thanks." He smiles once more and puts his hand on my shoulder, then leaves. He makes everything a million times worse for me to focus.
I barely notice Jasmine giving a disgusted look as Crawford leaves.

"Nia what if he just hurts you?"

"And what if he doesn't? Jas please. I love you to death, sister. But I need to sort through this. I don't even know how I feel right now. I just know that he makes me smile once I see him." After that, Jas backed off. I felt sort of bad, but it's true. I can't tell if I like him, for real, or if his hotness just gets to me. Well it can be both, right?
Then, I look back to see something totally expected. Yet, I didn't expect it. Crawford had his arm around some girl and Chris and Erica were standing with them and they were talking. Jas saw and that was probably the most embarrassing part, especially after I basically told her to fuck off.

"Nia... It's my turn." She drags me away so I can't see them.

"I'm sorry. I'm so stupid." I say to her and hug her.

Jas's POV:
Is this how I looked?! I don't even care about Chris so much, though. Nia, she had hope.

"Stop. He's the stupid one. You deserve better anyways, okay?" I know she didn't believe me, but she nodded yes. I felt terrible. I jinxed it. I told her he'd hurt her. "Hey, he's gonna regret it."
She hugs me and heads to her next period.
Erica is in my next period. She knows I hate her, too. Now, I'm just gonna start hating Chris as well. What if I said yes to him?! Not that I would ever, but still. Then, he goes kissing Erica? It's only been minutes and he's already on to another girl. Well, I don't care anyways.
Chris is just some jerk like his brother who would've hurt me, too. I'm so done with the people in this school. They piss me off too easily, and the only reason I'm not dropping out, the only reason I even make an effort to wake up, and come to this stupid place is because of Nia. But then again she talks about guys. Honestly, if I could, there are so many choices I have in mind to date. Whoops. If Chris were polite and treated people right, maybe he'd be on that list, because damn he's hot, but damn that personality sucks ass.
One day, just once. I want to see Christian Collins and Crawford Collins treat girls right. I saw Nia's face which showed me that she actually likes him. My face was the same when I saw Chris though?
All of a sudden, I hear a whole bunch of people laughing at me from behind.
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A/N:
Still working on making my stories longer...
In the next chapter I plan to make a more dramatic and emotional scene, please stay tuned!
-xoxo, Layla <3