feelings and emotions

Chapter 6

Chris's POV:
Nia walks away quickly, and I know what she's gonna do. Obviously, she's gonna tell Jasmine. I finally catch up to her, but I didn't quite know what to say.

"Hi." I smile.

"You know, you're really confusing."
She says, looking straight to where she was walking.

"What do you mean?" I say honestly. I didn't know what she was talking about.

"Jasmine told me that you embarrassed her in a hallway. But then I hear that you have a thing for her? What the hell, Chris? You know, you're really messed up. Your brother probably is too." I feel bad because I know that Crawford used to have a thing for her and now she's talking shit about him.

"Whatever, just please don't tell Jasmine. Keep in mind I said 'maybe'. So don't be going around telling everyone, acting like you know everything. You don't. You don't know me. You don't know Crawford." I say storming off.

Her words stayed in my mind for a while. I don't have a thing for Jasmine. But did I really embarrass her? I felt bad after I heard those words, and I immediately regretted what I did and said in that hallway. Jasmine is really nice. Even when she rejected me, but it still hurt and I don't know why. She's just another girl. She doesn't matter.
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After I get out of class, I see Erica waiting outside. Will she ever leave me alone? Jasmine probably hates my guts. She obviously hates Erica's, so after I kissed Erica, who knows how Jasmine feels about me? Not that I even care.

As I leave, Erica follows. She's like a fucking stray cat.

"Erica! Get a life! I'm not interested! You lost me once, you're not getting me back. Okay?!" I say, too annoyed.

"Chris, you know you still love me. Just tell me, it's okay. I love you too." She says pulling my shirt so I come closer to her face. I push her away again. I've been pushing her a lot lately. It's not my fault she's annoying though. All of a sudden, I feel a hand slap my cheek. It stung like hell. I look up to see Erica running off. I look to the side, soon after, and see Crawford running up to me. There was a cut on my lip from Erica's nails. Crawford turns me around to bring me to the bathroom, then I see Jasmine and Nia. How embarrassing. Jasmine had a hand covering her mouth. Her eyes were wide. Nia is staring at Crawford. She's been staring at him a lot ever since the first day of school.

"Let's get you out of here." Crawford says putting his arm over my shoulders.
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When we get home Crawford asks me what that whole "scene" was about.

"I thought you had a thing for Erica, bro." He says, looking confused.

"I wish I never did." I roll my eyes.

"But I- I think... I have feelings for someone else anyways..." I regret what I just said. I'm not ready to accept that I might like Jasmine. Why her? Out of all the people that I've asked out, I fall for someone who rejects me? Why?

"What?! Who?!!" He says loudly. I hit his mouth with a pillow and tell him to shut up.

"Nia." I panicked, then I laughed so he knew I was joking.

"Ha. Ha. Very funny." He makes an annoyed face, then hits me back with his pillow and laughs.

"Didn't you used to have a thing for her though?" I ask, just to clarify some things.

"With her, I'd have a 'thing' for her anytime." He looks at me. "The way that she acts is so cute and she just makes me happy every time I see her. Yeah she hated me, probably still does, but that's what I like about her. She's different, Chris."

That's when I realized that I have a 'thing' for Jasmine.