feelings and emotions

Chapter 16

Jas:
As me and Nia walk down the isle, everybody stares. Did I do our makeup that bad?

I quickly rush over to Chris and grab his wrist.

"Hey do I look that gross?" I say giggling. He kept looking at me and smiling like an idiot. "Chris!" I say snapping him out of what seemed to be a trance or something.

"Jas... I-I... You and Nia looked... Wow." he says still smiling. I couldn't hold back from giggling a bit because he looked like a complete dork, but it was adorable.

Nia:
When I was walking, Crawford looked like he was just about to leave. Trying to show him that I don't care at all, I walk past him with a small smile and take a seat. He looked as if he had just seen a ghost. Was I that scary looking? I think to myself. Then I feel a presence of someone sitting next to me.

"I'll stay for you." Crawford whispers into my ear. I turn to him.

"No I'm pretty sure Amelia would rather---" I see Amelia storming out of the place.

"Amelia who?" Crawford smiles. I couldn't help but smile back.

"So are you guys...?" I wasn't sure what to say or how to say it.

"There were too many disagreements. She wanted to leave I wanted to stay. I let her leave." he says calmly. He didn't even sound mad or sad.

"But why?"

"You're one of my friends now. I'm going to be here for you. If Amelia can't except that, then it's probably best she left anyways." he said, grabbing my hand. But that's when I realized he saw me nothing more then a friend.

Crawford:
When Nia was able to walk right past me and A, I figured she didn't care. I still couldn't take my eyes off her when she walked in. I felt sorry for coming in with the wrong girl.

"Crawford!" Amelia hit my arm.

"What Amelia?!"

"Since when the hell do you call me by that? What's going on?!" she says. I catch her glance at Nia. She knows.

"A..."

"Whatever. I'm leaving. Let's go."

"No. I'm not leaving Nia's side."

"Crawford Collins, if you don't leave her side, I'm leaving you." when she said that, I realized that I didn't care. I could do so much better. I look over at Nia and smile. I wave at Amelia, signaling her that she could leave, and she storms off angrily. I then take the open seat next to Nia.

I move closer to her ear and whisper, "I'll stay for you."

She turns to me and so many words came rushing to my mind. Beautiful. Amazing.

"No I'm pretty sure Amelia would rather---" she looks back to see Amelia running off.

"Amelia who?" I smile. I catch her smile too, and I felt something warm inside my heart. I was falling for Nia.

No. I think I already did.

"So are you guys...?" she didn't know what to call us.

I explained to her about the argument we had, but I just wanted to stop talking about it already. She continued though.

"But why?"

At this point, I wanted to tell her so bad. I wanted to tell her that I wanted to be with her. I wanted to be hers. I'm a complete fool for Nia Taylor Anderson. I want to be the one who can wrap my arms around her waist. Kiss her when I want. Cuddle with her whenever. I want to intertwine our fingers. Show her off to everyone. And then something interrupted my thoughts. I played in my mind how she just smiled and walked right past me and Amelia. She would never feel the same way.

"You're one of my friends now. I'm going to be here for you. If Amelia can't except that, then it's probably best she left anyways." it was honestly hard for me to say. I couldn't fight the urge to hold her hand though. Luckily, she didn't pull away.

There were a few moments where I would just stare at her and think I like you so much. I must've said it out loud though because next thing you know, Nia is asking me what I just said.

"Oh um I just said that I'm really sorry." she just smiled. She was tough. I mean, with her life before, and now this. I just wanted to hug her and let her break down in my arms. Then I realized that my thoughts are taking over way to much. It's just that now that I'm sure of how I feel for her, I guess everything is coming to my mind. Either that or those thoughts have been there all along and I never noticed. How stupid am I, then.