Once i realized that he wanted me with him, i felt alot more comfortable around the flat. I no longer felt like a passing traveler, i felt wanted. Needed even. After our tensing moment we let go of each others fingers and we ate dinner, it was silent but, we didn't know what to say really.
I took a quick shower and went to bed, i pretended i was asleep when Niall suddenly walked into my room.
I quickly made myself look cute sleeping, oh god i hope i looked okay. I heard him sigh, hearing footsteps quietly shuffle towards the side of my bed. He sat down. Why is he sitting? Thoughts raced through my brain quickly as he just sat there.
"You were so unexpected beautiful, so unexpected" i heard a chuckle along with his words. BEAUTIFUL?
"goodnight Alicia" he gave me a quick peck on the forehead, it took every power in my mouth not to smile. I laid there simply breathing like i was sleeping. Until he left. I felt my forehead. Still warm from his lips. He kissed me.
*Next morning*
I woke up in sweats, another nightmare. I quickly changed myself into white shorts & a pink sleeveless blouse. I realized my feet were cold so i slipped on some blacks socks. I trudged into the bathroom to brush and fix up. Skipping down towards the kitchen i heard someone messing with the pots, Niall.
Always making breakfast, always.
"You never fail" i spoke, apparently it startled the poor boy, he turned around and gave me a huge smile "Pancakes!" he practically squealed, that boy and his pancakes.
Again, we ate in silence. WHY WON'T HE SPEAK!
As if he read my mind, "so when's your next modeling shoot?" he spoke in between his bites, "i think two weeks" i smiled, these pancakes were delicious. "Wanna go out with me?" he asked, i froze, he seemed to catch my look and quickly panicked "oh no i mean out to go shopping, we need more food and all and erm.." he rambled off, i felt a bit red as i nodded. "Yeah, i'll go" anywhere with you.
"Great, we'll leave later around 11" he smiled. I cleaned the dishes after arguing with Niall for about 20 minutes that i had to do something. He finally caved and just watched me carefully. I knew he wasn't watching the dishes, he was studying me, i felt his eyes burning in me. "What?" i asked finally, "what? uh, what?", "why are you looking at me like that" i replied, "i find you highly attractive Alicia" he smirked. I almost dropped the plate in the sink, i managed to keep my grip. Niall Horan found me attractive.
"Liar" i simply replied, he seemed shocked. I turned off the water and dried my hands, i felt his grip from behind me. "I meant what i said" he murmured, i felt his arms encasing my entire body, i felt safe. I couldn't reply, i just kept remembering what those other men said to me, the exact same thing, they lusted for me. They had me. Used me. Left me.
"I-" "I'm not like those other men" he practically read my mind, how does he do that?
"I've been hurt too many times to count, I don't know who I can really trust, i need a friend Niall" i whispered, i was close to tears because of the flashbacks, the horrors. He was still holding me, gently, not roughly.
"I'll be your best friend, your enemy, your lover, your boyfriend.." he trailed off, i never want to hurt him.
He finally released, i faced him, there were tears in his eyes too. "I want to know" he stated, "know what" i questioned. "I want to know what they did to you" he whispered. Sighing deeply i lead him towards the couch and told him as much as i could, little detail. By the time i had finished i had cried buckets, he had cried buckets. We ended up not going to the grocery store, instead, once i was finished, he got up and left me alone on the couch.
"Niall?" "I'm coming back babe", he walked down the hall and came back with a huge blanket. He laid down on the couch and beckoned me to lay next to him. I fit perfectly on the side of him, he wrapped his arms around me after wrapping the blanket on top of us. His chin was on the top of my head so I could hear his perfect heart beating. We didn't say anything. Just the sound of his heart.
I could stay like this forever.
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Never Again
FanfictionAfter her years of abuse from men, Alicia vowed to never again love a man. Until she found Niall. Alicia was just a homeless girl escaping the clutches of her drunken mother and her mother's boyfriend abuse. Leaving at only the age of 15, Alicia no...
