Never Again

Chapter 10: Confessions

"Tell you what" his eyes narrowed at me, i felt uncomfortable. "Tell me why i can't go into your bedroom"

He stood up and walked directly in front of me until we were inches apart. "the real reason?"

"yes" i almost couldn't breath, he was so close. "Because every girl that's ever walked into that bedroom has gotten nailed, i don't want it to be that way with you" 

He walked back to putting away the groceries leaving me with an empty feeling. How many girls has he laid? I shook my head of those thousands of girls who line up at his door every night. "How many?" 

"excuse me?"

"How many" i repeated.

"over 15" he replied slowly. I just let those words sink in, over 15. I just turned and walked into my room, feeling overwhelmed by just a stranger. i sat down and faced the window, my back to the door. i heard it slowly open, "Al" his voice filled my brain and made me feel like i was about to break. "what"

"tell me a secret" he sat down next to me. A secret? which secret, oh Niall i have thousands. 

"which one?" i looked up to see his face in the direction of the window. I could see a small grin forming on his lips, "anyone your heart desires to share" he replied before looking at me. 

I sighed before i told him about my abuse and cutting, his grin immediately disappeared and a concerned look approached his face. While i confessed my guts out his arm had found its way to wrap around me and his other hand found my shaking hands. 

"I've never told anyone this much" i shook violently. the past was haunting me more than i'd ever thought. 

"I'm glad i was the first" he replied, he slowly squeezed me into a hug, i buried my head into the crook of his shoulder. For the first time in my entire life, i felt secure with someone. Someone who actually cared.