EgoManiac

A Vist To The Past

A Visit To The Past:

"Zeke wait up" I yelled running to catch up with him after school. "Oh hey" he said with a smile. "If you're not too busy, I was wondering if you wanted to hangout" I said. "I don't have anything better to do," he replied. "Cool um what do you want to do?" I ask. "Well I need to go to my apartment to feed my cat before anything, you could come with me then we can figure something out" he said. "Okay" I said and we walked to his apartment. I sat on his couch as he fed the cat. When he had finished, he sat on the couch beside me.

"You know I've been thinking about you a lot lately," Zeke said, staring at me. "Oh" I replied hypnotized by his green eyes. "Yea" he said, moving a little closer to me. I couldn't breathe, my heart was beating so fast. Never had I been so close to a guy like him, so tall and handsome. It's like I was hypnotized, Is that a good thing" ? I ask with a smirk. "I don't know you tell me he says as he tucks a strand hair behind my ear. I don't reply just with a smile and laugh. "How about we get out of here" he says grabbing my hand. "Okay" I say looking at the ground. It was kind of nice having a guy be interested in me even if no one knew. He was senior and I was freshman neither of us wanted the harassment. We managed to find some time together for make out sessions and late night talks but nothing really serious and I was perfectly happy with that. I knew eventually it wouldn't be enough for him though and he'd want more and I wasn't sure I was ready for that yet...

I turned back to reality as we started walking up a set of stairs to what I assume is his bedroom. He lived in a small apartment just minutes away from school with his uncle I believe. He wasn't big on talking about his life and I wasn't much for prying. We walk in and he shuts the door behind us, "it's just us don't worry" he says breaking the silence. "Oh" is all I manage to get out as my mind starts to wonder knowing what he's probably gonna expect. We sat down in the room. I'm looking around the place trying to quickly think of excuses to leave. "You know you look amazing today Rosette," he says, breaking my train of thought. I blush and smile looking at the floor. He grabs my hands and I look at him, " I mean it. You always look amazing" he says, leaning in close. I can't help but stare Into his emerald green eyes.

I can feel my heart beating faster, I don't know why I'm so nervous. This isn't our first kiss but this time there's something different. Suddenly Red flags are shooting up around me as his hands start moving up my thigh and pulls me in and kisses me. I gently start to pull myself away but he pulls me back holding me tighter. "Zeke Stop" I say as he continues to kiss me. "Just relax, I won't hurt you" he says. He forces me to lay down and I keep trying to push away. "Please stop" I plead as tears start in my eyes. He ignores as he continues to do as he pleases. No matter how loud or much I pleaded he wouldn't stop just telling me I would thank him later.

When he's done he leaves me laying there all vulnerable. Shaking, I quickly get dressed and grab my bag. I'm almost out the door when he stops me "No one will believe you, and besides you liked it. You'll be back for more" he says. He opens the door and I run out and back towards home as quickly as possible.

I catch my breath and I try to calm myself as I open the door. Seeing no signs of anyone being home I go into the bathroom and start a shower. I climbed in and started scrubbing trying to get the feel of him off me. I drop my sponge and sit in the tub with the water running over me as I'm crying. He was right though, no one would ever believe me. He's a senior .I'm a silly freshman and everyone knew I had a crush on him.... I hear the door open and my brother yelling my name. I quickly forced myself to get out and act like everything was okay. I wrapped a towel around me and took off to my room.

There's a knock on my door as I'm finishing getting dressed. I open the door and quickly turn back towards my mirror brushing my hair. "Mom and dad left money for dinner did you want pizza?" Brad asks. "Yea that's fine" I say quickly, avoiding eye contact. "Garlic and pepperoni?" "Sure" "Wings?" "Ok" "BBQ" "mhmm" "I'll go order it then '' Brad starts to leave, he stops and turns back around. "Is everything okay?, You can talk to me if something is wrong." I stopped brushing my hair and looked at his worried eyes. "Why would anything be wrong?" I ask, feeling like I was holding my breath. "Idk you just seem off tonight". He says "I'm fine, just tired today. I went for a long walk after school" I quickly replied. "Oh, Alright well I'll go order the food then" He says, closing the door behind him.