Always Waiting

A Different Angle

Abigail's PoV

A lot of shocks happen in life, some more shocking than others. Though I think the ones you expect the most that are the most shocking.

I always thought that if you knew something was going to happen you wouldn't be as shocked or hurt, but turns out I've been wrong.

Liam's story was something I never expected, but a the same time I knew it, way down in the back of my mind.

I also knew there was another reason I wanted to do this plan, it was always there telling me, but I ignored it so when Liam pointed it out it shocked me worse than it should have.

"You just wanted a reason to comeback." he said, " Charlotte never got revenge, and you know that. You just needed a reason to destroy me." he continued, "Why did you have to comeback?"

I was to zoned out to answer that questioned to his face. Why did I come back? Why did I wait years to do anything about it? Why am I here?

"I..." I attempted that night.

Everything about that night was the perfect setting, and everything about that day is burned into my mind.

They say that when something traumatic happens the moment is always with you, stuck inside your brain.

However to me the ones that you know are going to happen are so much stronger that the ones you never expected. Those thoughts that have been quietly nagging you become louder, start eating you. You could've done something you could've changed it if you just listened!

Listen. Now that's a word. It seems so impossible, like your too stubborn to believe the truth that is lying write in front of your eyes. The truth that can be covered by many other thoughts of impossibility.

You love him: your not good enough. You never will be. Go die. Don't listen to anything good, it's not for you. He doesn't care about you. Your alone.

None of the lies are true, but can you really pick out the truth, when the lies are so much louder?

"I- what Abby?" Liam pulled me back to reality "Why can't you just tell me the truth."

I looked at the ground trying to comprehend what Liam was asking me. The truth.

Maybe when you know the answer to something it makes it so much harder that when you don't. You know what you should say, you know what's going on, but at the same time, the lies are always there telling you it's wrong. That you'll regret it. That you will never understand it.

"Because the truth is hiding behind to many walls of lies." I said that cool night. I don't even feel like I said it. My lips were moving, the words were coming out but it didn't feel like it was from me.

I know what I should do, but at the same time I can't do it. The other option is there trying to shove it in my face, run. Its yelling it at me. The other option face my past. Neither I want to do, but I must choose. Why can't I just be someone else.

A lot of shocks happen in life, some more shocking than others. Though I think the ones you expect the most that are the most shocking.

I always thought that if you knew something was going to happen you wouldn't be as shocked or hurt, but turns out I've been wrong.

Because my name is Abigail Louise Johnson, and I am partially responsible of the suicide of my sister.

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