the beginning of my new look(ana)

I'm telling you, it's just once.

End of freshman year, it's not even.. I just don't want to be stressed. Anyways, I ended up dating a boy, and come on I thought he was amazing. He would tell me he loved me, he accepted my thought. But, not everything was amazing.

I developed real feelings, but he was a dick. (excuse my potty mouth) but he was just straight up a dick, and I still liked him. I cheated and payed the consequences. I will admit he cried. Cried.

Who would do that, after everything he's giving someone. All though, I do want to defend my self. I was so desperate for attention. We never hung out. It was the summer.

Oh god the summer.

The summer.

When ever I say that to myself, I think of so much that happened in June. It was the 9th. The day after we were out if school.

At the time I was still with the guy, and I didn't cheat on him, I'll tell you more anyways. I went to someone else's house, it was my amigo, we were close. ( I guess. ) but, we left his house, and went to a little passage way down the road. I knew we were going to smoke, and I wanted to more them anything. I was still a beginner, you know? Like only one time deal. But, I was buzzed and he was gone.

After we were done I was talking to him about personal stuff, and honestly I don't wanna say what happened. But I will say I lied to him to sound cool.

He kinda betrayed our friendship.

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Sorry I'm feeling ewe this is a little reason why I kinda still an in my old ways I'll say more in a few days.