All I Ever Wanted

The End

'I wonder if this world would be better off without me. No one cares. No one would miss me.'
I seem sort of depressed, and maybe you're thinking, 'Oh, don't say. Someone you know loves you.' Well you would be wrong. No one would notice my disappearance until after Christmas break. That would be when my teachers notice my absence, call my parents and search for me, maybe. They may search long enough to find my body.
I, Lucy Cooper, am no one special. I have never liked myself, never seen my blue eyes as beautiful, or my curly brunette hair as spectacular. I am not curvy, cute or funny. I'm not smart, I'm not anything, I'm not special. I am nothing. Those at school beat me and tell me how insignificant I am. My parents never notice the scars that are left on me. They have never cared enough to see if I have ever been okay. They often get drunk and beat me just as badly as those at school.
Enough of my boring life story. Here I am right now, leaning on the ledge of the St. Matthew's Bridge in Jacksonville, Florida overlooking the St. John's River. I have lived here most of my life. I choose to die here as well.
I am ready now. I am ready to jump; to end my life. Slowly I climb up the railing and look down into the water. I can smell the ocean breeze as it plays on my face and in my hair. My adrenaline from the thought of jumping. It's just a leap of faith, a leap of faith in no one else, only faith in myself to allow myself to throw myself over. I calm down, breathe, and focus on the murky water beneath me.
'Okay. On the count of three.' My thoughts are jumbled but I can push them away. 'One...Two..." That is as far as I get. Something catches my eye and I look to see what it is. Really what I see is a man running for his life. How ironic. A man catches my eye before I die.
The man runs around the corner, followed by a bigger and fiercer looking man. The second man is holding a gun and without thinking, I climbed back on to the bridge and I ran after the two guys. I didn't understand why I cared to know what was going on. Not even two seconds ago, I was ready to fling myself off of a bridge. Now I am running through this dreaded city, trying to find a couple of strangers that aren't really friendly with each other. Confusion settled in quite quickly, but I needed to focus. I caught up to them in an alley, the first man, a small and scrawny thing was really taking a beating. The second man, a big heavyweight champion by the looks, was showing no mercy to the smaller guy.
"I've had it with you Doctor. You are nothing more than a nuisance. Now I can finally get rid of you." The bigger man fumed with rage and continued to punch the smaller one. His voice was deep and monstrous. He scares me but I don't care. His massive muscles were enormous. His dirty white tank top added to the rugged criminal look he had going on.
"Go ahead!" The smaller guy responded. "Kill me! You won't get away with it. Someone will stop you. The human race is too advanced and too hard-headed. They will fight til they know they are safe. It's impossible to take over the humans!" His voice weakened with every word. He had blood gushing from his nose and his face was already bruised, badly. His voice was like silk; the British/Scottish sound in his voice was straining to be heard.
"I've waited a long time for this," the thug sneered, pointing the gun at the smaller man, the doctor's, head. "To give me a fair shot to kill you," with that, the giant threw the other guy into the wall. I watch his body go limp and the giant aimed to shoot.
With no hesitation I screamed and ran for the gun. My adrenaline running a hundred miles an hour. I fight for the gun and fail in my attempt and I am thrown across the alley. I jumped back up and ran back towards the bridge. The giant right behind me. He shoots at me on the way, and gets me once in the back. As I approach the bridge I decide to throw myself over the railing, and hoping the giant follows me to finish me off.
My attempt is a failure. I reach the bridge and jump towards the rail, but the giant has caught up to me. He pins me to the ground and aims for my head with his gun. I kick hard and he misses his shot. I continue to kick and fight until he shoots me again in my chest, but I don't back down still. I fight, hard. I fight until he gives up and runs across the bridge and off in the other direction.
My body hurts but I know that I am getting my wish. I am about to be free from the world. I am gonna die a hero rather than a coward. I push away all fear and pain. I am at peace. I am ready. I am done.