Family From the Start (Destiel AU)

Getting Away

•••Castiels Pov•••

I jumped around my room yelling lyrics to Love Runs Out by OneRepublic.

Scott screamed along with me. I met Scott when I got here.

He's gay like me so it was easy to get along. We're best friends but most think we're dating. If people don't think you're dating your best friend, are you really best friends? Maybe it's the way we cuddle during lunch or how I kiss his cheek to make him laugh. I like it here. No one has a problem with me being gay. The school is great, I have tons of friends. I'm living the good life here.

I came here to start over. That's what I did. I made friends, I made enemies, and I got a new personality. Sometimes I feel bad for leaving the way I did, but this was best for me and I hope Dean knows that.

It took a lot of time for me to move on...I haven't really moved on. I think of him less though. It's getting easier. It was miserable the first week I was here, but Scott talked to me and helped me.

I give him relationship advice like everyday. His boyfriend is so much fun to be around. He is mega-gay and makes sure everyone knows it.

He's another one of my best friends.

I stopped cutting. Scott and Matt made sure of it. Scott was there every step of the way.

For a month I got addicted to drugs. Matt helped since he had gone through the same thing after his brother died in a car wreck.

We're all the same. We have all lost someone close to us. That's what makes being around them so easy. They know what I'm going through.

Gabriel isn't as well as me. He still mopes around. He has one friend but they don't talk much. I don't like him because he's always acting weird and every time Gabe comes home from his house he acts the same. I would accuse him of doing drugs if I weren't afraid to relapse while confronting him.

The song ended an I collapsed onto the ground along with Scott who was laughing loudly.

"Now what?" He said looking over at me. I rolled onto my side and squinted in thought.

"We could...play monopoly?" I say and smile.

"No way! You get aggressive during board games." He laughs.

"I promise I won't punch you in the face again." I giggle and scoot closer to him and lay on his chest. My eyes start to get heavy and I become more relaxed.

"It's dark out." He says quietly.

I nod. "Would your mom let you stay the night?" I ask.

"I'm sure she would. You know she loves you like a son." I can hear his smile and it makes me smile.

"Love you Scottie." I yawn.

"Love you too Cassie." He moves and picks me up and lays me in my bed. He places a small kiss to my head and stood back up. "I'll be back. Goodnight Cas." He leaves the room and suddenly I feel alone.

I climb out of bed and pull the shoe box from under my bed. I take a picture out of me and Dean cuddling at the park. Tears spring to my eyes and I hug the frame to my chest.

"I'm so sorry, Dean." I start to cry. I pull out a small rock and giggle at the memory that it holds.

•••flashback to when they were 7 years old•••

"Dean I can not fly. You are being ridiculous." I say swinging on the creaky swings.

"You can! Just believe in yourself! Come on Cas! Jump!" He yells from behind me.

I close my eyes and as soon as I'm up in the air, I let go and leap. I open my eyes just in time to land on my feet and stumble to my hands and knees.

"Dean I did it!!" I get up and he runs over to me.

"I told you that you could do it Cas!" He smiles. "You just had to believe in yourself."

"If we ever get separated, in gonna fly back to you Dean." I smile and he giggles.

•••end•••

I tossed the rock back into the box and sighed. I kept the picture and held it as I fell asleep. I miss him so much. I hope everything is okay there.