Family From the Start (Destiel AU)

It All Happened Too Quickly

•••Dean's POV•••

I woke up on a cold Tuesday morning just as thunder cracked.

I grabbed my phone and pressed the home button only to have fifty-three notifications. Michael, Gabriel, and Lucifer have been calling me and texting me for hours. What the hell was so urgent? I hit Michaels contact and it started to ring. He picked it up instantly.

"Cas?" He said hope filling his voice. Now I'm worried.

"It's Dean. Where's Cas?"

"Dean, our mom is dead. She died last night...Cas found her. She fell asleep and..." His voice broke and there was shuffling.

"Dean?" Lucifer spoke into the phone. Michael must have started crying because there was sniffling. Tears were streaming down my face. Anna had always been like an aunt to me and Sam. She was family.

"Yeah?" I answered hoarsely.

"Can you call, Cas? He'll answer for you probably." He said. I hung up and dialed Cas.

It started to ring and I jumped when I hear Castiel's ringtone down stairs. I got up and walked down to find him sitting on the couch.

I walked over and slowly sat down by him. It was like he was in his own world. I had begun to wonder if he knew I was even here.

"Cas?" I say and looks at me. I smile weakly at him and he then hugs me tightly.

I returned the hug and rubbed his back as he began to cry.

"Cas I'm so sorry." I say kissing the top of his head. He sobs in response.

We sit there for maybe hours until I hear someone coming down the stairs. I turn my head and see Sam.

He has tears streaming down his cheeks. I sigh and lift and arm.

He runs over and buries his face in my neck and starts crying like Cas had been.

Cas had stopped crying but he was still clinging to me.

My mom came down the stairs and looked at me. She walked over and sat down.

I though she might start crying too but then she took Sam and pulled him into her lap like he was a small child again.

She cradled him and hushed him.

Castiel turned his head and watched her.

I hugged him tighter and he moved himself up more to get more comfortable.

"Your brothers are worried about you." I say as he lays his head my shoulder.

"I know." He sighs and nuzzles his face into my neck. "Are you okay?" He asked and it shocked me.

"She wasn't my mom Cas." I say.

"Yes but she was family to you. She treated you like her own son you must be feeling something. It's okay to show that you're wounded sometimes Dean. You can't win all the battles."

Something inside me broke. Like a dam holding back all my grief. I knew that I needed to be strong for Sam and Cas but Castiel just gave me permission to let it all happen.

A tear slowly dripped from my cheek and it was followed by many others. Cas wiped them away and kissed my forehead.

"We'll be okay, Dean. We'll be okay"

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Holy shat that's long!!! I didn't even mean to type that much. Okay so of coarse my writers block ends when I decide to kill someone. Im back I think. Love you guys thanks for all the support!!!

Happy Reading my fellow tributes and may the feels be ever in your favor!!! ~Lahatiel