Catts POV
He has been up my ass this entire trip. Who you with? Why? I don't know them. Go with this person. Not them. Is that a guy? AGHHHHHH!!!! Mind your own fucking buisness! I needed this trip. Four states away from you. God I want out, to be free of that cheating, lying asshole.. Alright Catt. Do it. The band has assembled for the Disney 2000 Mickey Mouse Show Thingy. I never pay attention haha, so something like that. He manages to say something I don't recall, but it really pissed me off and I said it. "Its over." He begs.. "Please don't leave me. I need you.." When I continuously reject him... He took more extreme measures... "Without you, I have no one.." Well we app have suicidal thoughts. Being who I am, I can't just leave him like this. I call.. And call.. To speak to a voicemail.. Panicked and sobbing I escape the light and water show to a bathroom. The walk was terror at its finest, "I killed him.. I killed him.. Please , please don't. Don't do this." 20 minutes or so pass, am eternity to a crutched sobbing girl in a single bathroom corner.. My anxiety grows stronger by each ring of the call. My eyesight a complete blur, I can hardly breathe.. My calls relentless, he finally answers.
"I'm sorry.." I say in a panicked sob.. "No you're not." He says in a cold tone. "I'm sorry, I'll stay I promise !.. I won't leave ever again I'm so sorry.." I say quick and I'm shaking and my nose stuffed with the panic and fear that if this call ends he will end forever.. "You're just saying that. You want me gone, so I'll he gone. You don't love me!" He's crying, screaming these harsh words at me, a venom I thought wouldn't hurt.. "I do, I do!" "NO YOU DON'T!" He replies quick and loud.. I pause over thinking those words. Do I love this boy that cheats on me, then lies to my face and convinces my naive self that he didn't. That he loves me. "I love you" the words slip out of my mouth, a repeated drill to save this boy.. "You'll just leave again," "No no no I don't I promise, please dont.. Don't do anything. Promise me.." I wasn't prepared for his response.. "Too late." I can't hold in my emotion, and I break. Screaming endless apologies to him.. Eventually he believes me and I stay. I convinced him that I still love him.. Knowing, I don't.
My days continue in Disney, full of fake smiles and constant pretend that I'm happy with him.. He'll always controlled you Catt. Stay controlled, and keep him alive. You aren't going to leave this crying highschool dropout to better yourself. No, you're stupid, naive and you sicken me.
