Light filtered through the blinds as his eyes flickered open and his gaze was met with the picture hung on the opposite wall. it was a photo they had taken the day they left beccles. kier let his eyes focus as he stared at it for a moment. he focused in on himself, smiling happily as he had wrapped his arms around the two men at either side of him, laurence and drew. he sighed to himself as his rationality flooded back.
"I think I over reacted a bit" he thought to himself as he chewed his lip with guilt. sure, drew was a pain in the ass sometimes but they had been through so much together, and no matter what had happened nothing was worth losing laurence over. yawning he turned over in bed and watched his lover sleeping. he remembered his angry words from the night before and decided against waking him. instead, he pulled himself out of bed and got dressed quietly before tiptoeing out of the room and across the landing to the timids' room. as he entered, he sighed softly and took a moment to watch the two, wrapped tightly in each other's arms sleeping soundly.
slowly he walked to drew's side of the bed and placed a hand on his shoulder, shaking him softly. with a few gentle blinks, drew awoke and looked up at kier emotionless, waiting for him to speak, hoping he would tell him everything was going to be okay.
clearing his throat kier began to whisper
"so I over reacted last night" he admitted "get dressed"
"nmmm" drew moaned as he yawned and pulled himself from shane's arms so he could sit up "why? where are we going?"
"I dunno" kier sighed "brighton maybe? somewhere fun. I guess I owe you"
"ookay" drew mumbled. he climbed out of bed and pulled on his clothes before jumping back over and kissing shane softly on the cheek
"I'm going out with kier" he explained softly and shane nodded
"I know" he said groggily as he turned over and kissed drew on the lips "I heard. take care okay?"
"w.will you tell laurence where we are?" kier asked sheepishly "I would've told him myself but he was really annoyed with me last night"
"he's not the only one" shane barked as he eyed kier coldly "but sure, whatever"
"okay..." kier sighed before turning back to drew "come on, we can get breakfast on the way"
and with one last kiss from shane, drew followed kier out of the flat, hoping and praying that this day out would fix their broken friendship.
things seemed to be a bit brighter by the time they reached the cafe for breakfast. although the subject of the argument and kier's guitar were being carefully avoided, the conversation was flowing almost as normal.
"damn it" drew moaned as he finished his breakfast and fumbled around in his pockets "I forgot to pick up my phone"
"you twit" kier laughed as he took a sip of his coffee
"c.could you text shane and let him know?" drew asked sheepishly "I don't want him to worry if I don't text him back or anything"
"geez" kier groaned "what does he think i'm going to do? kill you?"
as drew laughed nervously kier realised it was a stupid question under the circumstances and in silence, texted shane. he hesitated for a moment then typed a new message to laurence;
"I'm sorry baby. you're right. I acted like a fool. of course I don't hate drew, I was just angry. that guitar meant the world to me because it was from you but if I lost you I would curl up and die. I'm sorry. I miss your kisses already. I'll do everything i can to make it up to drew today, and I'll find a way to make it up to you too somehow. I love you Laurence, please don't ever forget that xxx"
"shall we get going then?" drew spoke as kier smiled softly and pressed send
"yeah" he replied as he placed his phone back in his coat pocket "let's grab a coffee for the road and get on our way"
the pair had fallen silent once more as they made their way out of the capital city. kier's thoughts were racing. he was yet to get a text back from laurence and he worried that even his attempt to make up with drew wasn't enough. in midst of the tension drew asked nervously if he could put on a CD which Kier simply nodded in reply to.
sighing, drew pulled out his favourite weezer CD from the case and attempted to insert it into the CD player. he realised immediately that attempting this with the same hand he was holding his coffee in was a stupid mistake but before he had a chance to rectify this, the lid popped off and the cup slipped from his grasp, splashing the hot liquid all over kier's leg.
screaming with shock, kier turned to face drew, the anger returning in his eyes as he tried to ignore the scold of the boiling hot beverage that was soaking through his jeans
"ARE YOU STUPID OR SOMETHING" he shouted out as drew recoiled to the corner of the passenger seat "YOU JUST CAN'T DO A DAMN THING RIGHT CAN YOU?"
"kier I'm sorry!" drew cried out "it was an accident"
"IT WAS AN ACCIDENT" kier mocked "AN ACCIDENT. EVERYTHING'S AN ACCIDENT. YOU'RE A DAMN ACCIDENT DREW!"
"WELL IF YOU FEEL THAT WAY WHY DID YOU ASK ME TO COME TODAY?" drew cried out as kier felt a rush of anger overcome him again
"YOU WANT THE TRUTH?" he screamed "OKAY HERE'S THE TRUTH! I HAD TO, OKAY? LAURENCE THREATENED TO LEAVE ME IF I DIDN'T MAKE IT UP TO YOU AND YOU'RE NOT WORTH LOSING HIM OVER"
"so, you never wanted to spend the day with me," drew asked subduedly, feeling his heart shatter "you're just doing it to save yourself?"
"NO" kier yelled "I'M DOING IT BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT WORTHY OF COMING BETWEEN ME AND LAURENCE"
"I want to go home" drew said through gritted teeth as kier turned back to him with anger in his eyes
"YEAH ME TOO" he shouted "I WOULD RATHER ROLL OVER AND DIE THAN SPEND ANOTHER MOMENT WITH YOU. I HATE YOU DREW, I REALLY DO, I WISH YOU'D JUST DISAPPEAR OUT OF MY LIFE SO I CAN JUST BE HAPPY"
but drew was focusing on something else, his eyes had widened in horror as his mouth dropped open
"KIER LOOK OUT" He screamed horrified as kier turned and glanced out of the windscreen to see he had ran through a red light straight into on coming traffic.
in pure panic he grabbed the steering wheel and turned it quickly as he heard drew's screams ring out. he heard his heart pound, he heard the horrific screech on the tires, the surrounding horns of other drivers nearby. everything slowed down but sped up at the same time as he realised there was nothing he could do to stop it, and as the wall drew closer to them he closed his eyes and let out a tear, regretting his final words.
the smell of burnt rubber and smouldering metal made him feel nauseous as shock paralysed his fragile body. he felt the severe pain prick at every inch of him and the tangled metal wrapped around him pinning him to the spot. yet he could not speak, he could not scream, he could not react at all. he lay for what felt for hours staring up at the ceiling of the van listening to Kier's manic screams ringing out. he could feel the blood trickling out of his abdomen where a shard of glass from the windscreen had punctured him. he wanted to cry, he wanted to scream along with kier, he wanted to shout out that he didn't want to die, not yet, not like this, but as he heard the sirens approach and he felt himself slip into unconsciousness, he realised he may not have a choice in the matter as the world turned dark and faded away.
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Regret *FVK FAN FIC*
FanfictionAfter a big argument, Kier loses his temper and tells Drew that he wished he would get out of his life. but did he really mean it? as much as he believed he did at the time, certain events were about to unfold that would make him question otherwise...
