Who Am I?

chapter 6

I opened my eyes and rubbed them. I stretched my arms then i hit something. I looked over and saw chris asleep next to me on the couch. We must have fallen asleep during the movie we watched last night. I yawned and stood up. The wood floor was cold against my feet. I walked into the kitchen to get some water when i froze. I saw my mom and dad standing in there. My mom with a worried face and a bruise on her face. My dad turned his head towards me and clenched his teeth. My mom put her hand on his shoulder and opened her mouth to say something but then he just pushed her flinging her across the kitchen knocking her into the wall. I watched her hit with a loud thud and saw blood dripping from her hand. I stared for a moment then quickly tried to run away. I didnt get very far before her grabbed me by the hair. He lifted me off the ground. He looked into my eyes as i was kicking my feet and crying. He yelled in my face "YOU FUCKING DISGRACE FOR A SON! ARE YOU INTENTIONALLY TRYING TO MAKE ME LOOK LIKE A FUCKING FOOL! YOU ARE A BOY YOU DONT GO AROUND DRESSING LIKE SOME SISSY GIRL! I WISH YOU WERE NEVER BORN YOU LITTLE FREAK! I SHOULD JUST KILL YOU RIGHT HERE AND NOW!" he dropped me and i hit the wood floor landing on my side. I gasped for air from just having the breath knocked out of me. My dad kicked me in the stomach and i slid across the floor hitting the wall. He muttered something under his breath then opened the door and left.

i used one hand on the wall to help me up and one hand on my stomach then i looked over and saw chris standing there with a hand over her mouth and tears in her eyes. I just stared into her eyes hoping she hadent seen all of that. But i knew... she did.

She looked into my eyes a minute longer then immediately ran over to me and wrapped her arms around me. "Im so sorry!" She said while crying into my shoulder.

Pain sprung through my whole body but i didnt move i was frozen. I just stood there and so did she. After a minute of this i pulled away and stood up. I walked quickly into the kitchen and knelt down next to my mom who was unconscious. I grabbed the first aid kit and started to wrap her hand That got cut by the glass of a vase. I then grabbed more and wrapped it around her head. I tried to lift her and drag her to the couch but i was too injured and weak. I fell on the floor next to my mom and started crying. "Why do you do this mom? Why? You could have just let him hurt me and leave. Why did you get yourself hurt for me?"

My sobbing was interrupted by chris lifting up my mom and dragging her over to the couch. She looked at me completely calm now. "She will be okay. We can just call the hospital and... "

"No!" I said quickly. "No hospitals. Its a rule in this family. No matter what we cant go to a hospital."

Chris looked at me "but..."

"No" i said firmly standing up. I rubbed my eyes and looked at her. "I have done this many times before. I know what im doing. Thank you for trying to help me but this is not your problem."

She looked at me shocked. "Sam..."

I looked up at her. "Dont try to make me feel better. Im not weak and i can handle myself. You should probably leave now."

She froze for a moment then frowned "okay." She walked over to the door, turned to look at me, then turned back again and walked out.