Who Am I?

chapter 7

I sat next to my mom on the couch sobbing. This was my fault, she wouldnt be like this if it wasnt for me. Its because im not normal, its because im a freak. I only cause others pain. I only cause myself pain. I only cause pain.....

I stood up and walked into the kitchen. I filled two glasses with water. I set one on the table next to my mom and i started to drink one. I looked down at my mom and set my hand on her head. "You'll be fine mom. Dont worry". I said into the silent air not looking for an answer.... just to talk.

I stood up and walked up stairs to my room. I grabbed my sketch book off the table and then started scribbling in it quickly, drawing shapes forming a drawing. tears fell on my sketchbook as I drew. when I was finished I threw the book on the bed and looked down at it. it was a picture of me with tears in my eyes and black shadows all around me with evil faces. they were encasing me and I was going to die. I flipped the book shut and walked back downstairs.

when I reached the bottom of the stairs I froze. chris was standing there holding a paper in her hand. I stared at her for a moment then I walked up to her, "what is that?"

she handed me the paper. "i made it for you. I know its not very good but I wanted you to know you have a friend you can talk to. I thought since you are into art you might understand what this means."

I looked down at the paper. it was a drawing of me and her holding hands and smiling. it was terribly drawn but I didn't care. tears formed in my eyes and I ran into her wrapping my arms around her. "thank you so much. I love it." I sobbed into her shoulder.

she hugged me back and laughed. "wow. I didn't think it was that good."

I laughed too. "its not good at all. its so terrible. you really didn't try on this." I kept my arms around her.

"well maybe one day you can draw me something one day so we don't have to have my terrible drawing." she aid laughing.

I let go of her and smiled at her. I wiped my eyes. "thanks chris."

she blushed "yeah whatever.."

I looked over and saw my mom move. I looked back at chris "do you wanna walk down to the store with me? I wanna go buy some advil for my mom."

she nodded. "yeah. ill go home and get dressed. ill be back." she left

I want upstairs to get dressed as well.

I put the drawing on my wall and smiled. I'm not really sure why this drawing makes me feel so happy but it does. on my wall it is the only happy drawing surrounded by my sad ones. maybe now I can have more happy drawings. now that I have chris.