Unwanted

In Love?

*Did you think he was going to say that??? And so soon?? Eeepp! On with the story! Btw it gets a little saucy ;) *

As I sat on my bed, I thought and thought and thought. Am I in love with him? I don't know. What does love feel like? I'm just so confused right now. I groaned as I flipped back onto my bed, accidentally hitting my head on the wall behind me. And Tamura probably went home after I woke.

I should really call Tam to tell her about this but I don't really want to deal with all of this right now. Ugh, why is this so difficult? Why can't I have a normal life like Tamura? Ugh!!!

I readjusted myself on my bed and went to sleep, waiting for sleep to succumb me.

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Thank the Lord it was Saturday, I needed the sleep. It feels like it has been two weeks in one. Too long for me. I leaned over and looked at my clock. 7:39. Ugh, it's not even eight yet and I'm fully awake. I don't know what do now. Should I go see Ezra or call Tam? Maybe Ezra....

Ok I have decided one Ezra first, then Tamura. I turn over on my side and grab the journal. Wait holy shit, it took me ten freaking minutes to decide?!? What?!? Ugh, today is not my day.

Today is going to be shit, but let's get this done with, I grabbed the journal and closed my eyes. Well I guess Ezra gets to see me in my PJs.

*vision*

When I got in there, Ezra was asleep on his Queen size bed. He looked so peaceful, nothing hurting him, causing him to want to die. I crept up the right side of the bed and quietly sat down. I quickly laid down next to him and watched as he breathed slowly in and out. Oh gosh I sound like a creep.

Ezra rolled over towards me and tucked me in like a teddy bear. Omg, he's only in boxers. Ok Klare, calm down, he's just a boy.

Oh God, I can feel his lean muscles of his stomach against me. I pulled back slightly to see his face.

I could feel my face burning as I looked down at his defined chest and stomach. I slowly raised my hand and started tracing patterns onto his soft skin. Goosebumps slowly raised onto his pale skin, as I continued to trace random patterns.

Ezra's breath faltered, and I froze slowly raising my head, only to see him still asleep. I sighed in relief, and I continued to trace slow patterns.

Ezra moved so he was on his back, with me tucked into his side. I moved the blanket down so I could have more room to trace, and felt his defined abs. I didn't know he had abs!

I slowly slid my hand down towards his belly button, and heard a large moan escape his mouth.

Oh Lord, that was extremely, what's the word, hot? I felt tingles come up from, down there.

I did it again, and again, and with each pass earning another hotted moan.

What am I doing!!! Ugh, whatever, I guess he likes it?

As I did it once more a hand shot out grabbing my hand, pushing me on my back.

"Klare, I swear to God, if you don't stop something is going to happen. And I don't know if you'd like it or not." Ezra said gruffly into my ear, with his body pressed tightly against mine. Against the thin fabric of my night dress. I felt something very hard push against my my pelvis. Curiously I pushed against him, earning a soft whimper escape his mouth.

"I'm s-sorry, did I hurt you?" I said pushing him up to see his face. He shook his head.

"No, Klare, you're just making things really difficult." He said through clenched teeth. At his words I started to squirm underneath him.

Ezra pinned both arms down, "Klare, stop moving, please. You're making it so difficult for me." He said slowly kissing up my neck to my ear. My own body betraying me with a soft moan. Ezra jerked up, staring. I felt my face turn all sorts of colors.

Still starring, he slowly went back to my neck, kissing roughly. His lips traveled down my neck, over my collar bone, and down to the line of my night dress. Which was a lot lower than before.

I gasped at how low he actually kissed. Oh my God. I forgot I also sleep in my fucking underwear. I guess Ezra also noticed, he brought his hand down to the hen of the dress pulling it up.

He kissed my naval, my heart racing with excitement, and fright, what might happen next?

Ezra's lips pressed against my ribs, kissing each one, and every now and then a soft bite. With every bite a soft groan from me.

Ezra came back up and the look of complete lust raged in his eyes. He brought his lips to mine, quickly, tasting me.

He softly licked my bottom lip, and quickly darted inside, groaning into my mouth. He released me from the kiss, breathing hard. "I want you so bad." He whispered, his forehead on mine. He ran his hand down my thigh, pulling it up around his hip.

"E-Ezra, I c-can't. I-I should go." I said staring into his blue eyes. I moved against him, but he gripped my arms.

"Please don't leave me like this, my Klare. I want you, I want to physically love you. Make you feel amazing, touch your bare skin against me. Baby don't you want this too?" Ezra said gruffly into my ear, while running his rough hand over thigh.

"I-I do, Ezra, but this is not the time to do this. I-I'm not r-ready." I strangled out, breathing too hard to healthy, all the words that came out of his mouth. They scared me, yet filled me with so much excitement that it seemed unreal.

Ezra's head bowed into my neck, he breathed in deeply. "I'm so sorry, I-I didn't mean to push you. I'm sorry Klare." He huffed out a huge breath of air as he got off of me and laid next to me.

"No sweetie, no it's not like that. I would, but I'm just not ready, I'm not ready to give myself to you yet. I just can't right now." I lifted my hand and turned his head for him to look at me, I lightly smiled.

He brought his hand to the side of my face, I leaned my cheek more into his calloused hand. "I can't think straight when I'm with you. I guess that's what you get for being in love with a seer." He laughed.

He's IN love with me!?! I bit my lip, looking down at the mattress. I didn't know what to say, do I love him? Well he is my beloved, and your beloved is made for you. Oh hell, I looked up at Ezra and kissed him deeply.

Our lips moving in sync for many moments, I broke away, smiling. "I love you too, Ezra." I kissed him again.

Holy shit I said it. I really told him, I told Ezra Felix that I loved him.

"Fuuuck, the I don't know what, made me all hot and bothered. Damn it" I mumbled as I walked to my bathroom.

*So what did you think??? Klare and Ezra!! They almost did the do! I'm so sorry as well about the very late update. :/ don't be to mad please.... XOXO*

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