The Lost Chapter

ONLY 17 baby with a baby

   I called my cousin & my sister & told them I missed my period they said I was crazy. So one day my cousin boyfriend brought me a test & I took it & it said I was pregnant. What am I going to do with a baby? How will I tell my mom & my aunt? Damn I'm killing this thing inside of me I can't have no child. I called Tyrone & told em he didn't sound surprised only thing he said was " Are you sure Day"? & then before I could answer he hung up the phone but I knew why he did it  because well I knew he was with another female. Just to be sure I made an appointment to the Women Center & my cousin came she did all the paper work with me. They asked for my mom & dad I lied told them I didn't know where they was. The lady took me in the room & gave me the test & a couple books talking bout God & all I was thinking man I know God love me but dammit I ain't having no damn baby.  She came back & said," looks like you bout to be a mommy" I gave her that look like bitch you must be crazy. She started telling me bout God & how everything happen for a reason & I was just thinking my people are going to kill me. I didn't tell nobody but some how my mom found out & well it was like the end of our relationship we fought yes I was pregnant & my mom hit me. Told me I was stupid & she put me out I started looking for some where to stay. I did, a old friend of mines took me in & her family helped me. I told Tyrone people they was there trying to help me all the way too but Tyrone was playing both side one min he would tell me he want his family & the next I was arguing with Jasmine on the web & she was telling me I didn't know my baby daddy ( hood term). How would I not know my bd when Tyrone was the only man I ever let inside of me. My mom called me one day crying & begging me to come home but I felt hurt so I didn't want to but   my friend mom brought me home & seeing my mom cry made me cry. She just wanted better from me didn't want me to be like them other girls & being home was best for me anyways.  My mom made sure I had everything I needed & wanted & she finally started accepting Tyrone even tho she didn't like him.  Things started going good I started to fall in love with this little person inside of me. A love that I never thought would happened before! I started my 11th grade year with a belly everybody was surprised but I remember them long walks to & from school I was determined no matter what but no matter how hard I tried things just wasn't going right for me. One night I stayed up because I wasn't feeling good I told my mom she told me I have an appointment tomorrow just wait but something didn't feel right at all. So the next morning I called Tyrone & told em & he said " bra you so damn extra dawgh" so I hung up I knew my baby so I caught the city bus & went to the hospital. I told the people what I was feeling & they rushed me to see what was going on. The doctor walked in & said " mommy we are going to have this baby today because your bag was leaking & good thing you came in today because if you had waited you might could have lost your baby". I just thought to myself so I called Tyrone from the hospital phone just to make him feel like shit. I called his sister too along with my mom they told me they was coming later on that night but I just couldn't face the fact that I really was going to be a mother.