It's cold. It's not shivers down your spine cold. It's. Just.
Cold.
It's 10:31 now. I'm sitting on the swing. It's funny when I remember all the good memories as a child.
It's 10:32 now. A kid, possibly a girl. She's meowing everywhere. Who does she think she is. Breaking my silence like that.
It's 10:33 now. Someone's car alarm is long off. A dog is barking. The night is still young. My back aches.
It's 10:34 now. Mom is begging me to go home. She says its dangerous outside. Afraid that I might be kidnapped. Why would I be? I worth nothing.
It's 10:37 now. I'm at the back alley. Next to a potted plant. It's hot here. It's not cold. I hate it.
It's 10:38. The aircond is dripping. There's just so much noise. The light is too bright here. I wanna close my eyes and forget everything.
It's 10:40. I guess she doesn't really know I'm here. Might as well just stay outside till the morning. My back is feeling sore.
It's 10:43 I saw an airplane. Pretended it was a wishing star. Wished for nothing. I know wishes aren't true. But it was beautiful. Sparkling red, White and Green.
It's 10:44. I'm wishing all my problems would go away. Today reminded me of my 13 year old life. It sucked. I remember walking into class with my books scattered everywhere. I remember everyone starring at me. At least someone helped me pick everything back up. I remember when they use to call me a slut even though I was a "nerd". Everyone laughed.
It's 10:46 A orange Kitten passed by me. It was cute.
It's 10:47. I wanted to hold the kitten. But I ran away from me. I'm use to it. It's normal. Nobody wants me.
It's 10:50. Bugs are everywhere. I don't mind. At least I'm alone.
It's 10:54. The kitten came back. It ran away from me again. It looked sickly.
It's 10:58. Grandma isn't the only one feeling depressed. I'm depressed. I fake my happiness. J can see it thru my smile. He always asks me why my smiles are so fake. Didn't know how to reply. I don't need to tell you why I'm depressed mom. You wouldn't understand. No one would.
