"I need to know now, will you love me again?" As the speakers blasted the melody out loud. That sentence, explains everything I felt.
Just right then, a school van stops beside my car. I looked at it closely, damn it.... I can see him clearly from my view.
Head down. His hair. Capturing half of his face, light from the street lights shined down. Peaceful. Calm. Yet to me, it was so hurtful, a torture, a pain that can never be removed.... Just looking at him behind that glass window made me felt like I was hit by a train over and over repeatedly.
The feeling of wanting him back into my life so badly just stirred up all the emotion I had in the wee hours of the morning. It hurts so bad... He drives me up the wall without even needing to be there.
Thoughts came rushing straight into my veins, pumping all the way to every possible part of my body. I went crimson. How does he do that? How does he leave yet not feel a thing? Can't I handle it? Can't I just forget about him? Can't I just get away from all this and move on like a normal human being could?
Yet day after another, I'm able to withstand the anger, the pain, the hurt. He probably never realizes I'm looking there anyways...
Hope you would see this my dear.
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