Suicide / / muke [SLOW UPDATES]

1.2

-trigger warning-

1.2

||Mikeys pov||

tear's came rolling down my cheeks. I choked out a loud sob and began crying.

Just fucking die Michael

Everything will be better.

Luke asked for it.

Glad my mum wasn't here to hear me crying. I tugged on my hair then screamed as loud as I can.

I threw my phone to the wall causing it to break the screen . I let my angry out , I let my sobs out , Every day I gotta live with this , I want to end this .

i got off the bed then fell to my knees and grabbed the box under my bed where I hid my precious blades. I took one blade and started at it for a couple seconds. seconds later i dragged the blade on my wrist.

i loved that feeling when it stings. i loved seeing the blood coming out. after 7 deep cuts I became woozy. I dragged my self to the bathroom then closed it .

I grabbed the bottle of pills then started opening it. but the worst part was I couldn't. I started using my hardest on opening it but I reminded my self that I'm weak.

I started to get angry that the bottle won't open.

"Just open already!" I yelled. Tears rolling down my face , I started to scream and scream , I threw the bottle at the mirror causing the mirror to break into pieces. I grabbed the bottle that didn't even open.

i then heard a yell .

"Michael!" It sounded familiar. Until I heard another voice.

"Mikey!" There was two people out there .

Niall and Calum .

I ignored them and started focusing on trying to open the bottle. Until I finally saw it.

Push down and twist.

I pushed down the cap as soon as I was gonna twist but Calum and Niall barged into the door.

I looked up and saw Niall and Calum's eyes widen.

"G-go away!" I yelled.

Niall and Calum looked at each other in shock until they both ran to me. I started to scream and scream until my throat burned.

"Get the fuck away from me! I wanna d-die!" I chocked out a sob.

Calum and Niall tried grabbing the pills out of my hand until Calum pulled each of my fingers. I hit Niall in the groin with my elbow causing Niall to groan in pain and letting me go. I finally got up and snatched the pills away from calum's hand. I ran to the door trying to open it but it looked like they locked it.

I felt someone grab my shirt and tugged me a scream came out of my mouth.

"M-Michael please let go of the pills, W-we can help y-you" I heard Niall say.

"No! I don't need help! I'm fine! I'm happy! Look see no cuts! Just fucking look at it! See what the world did to me!? It made me suffer! And I just wanna fucking die for fuck sakes!" I snapped then showed Niall and Calum my bloody wrist.

"That's not true M-Mikey you don't wanna die" Calum whispered softly while tears rolling down his face.

"Oh you don't wanna know! I have a terrible life!" I snapped in there faces. I pushed down the cap then twisted quickly. I threw the cap on the floor.

"Michael give me that!" Calum snapped before grabbing the pills and flushing them down the toilet.

"What the fuck did you just do! I was gonna let me be happy and all the shit! But you had to come! I wanna die cally! I just wanna fucking die! I wanna be happy! I don't wanna live in this awful place anymore!! It's a disgrace!! you know what ?! Fuck you guys ! get the hell out of my life , I don't deserve you guys , I hate you both !! I hate everybody !! " I yelled then fell on my knees to my butt and pulled my knees against my chest and started letting out loud sobs.

I heard the door close and looked up seeing nobody there.

they left me.

I'm alone.

What have I done.

Anger started coming towards me. I started throwing things everywhere. Breaking everything in the bathroom. I started getting dizzy as I looked at my very bloody wrist. Till everything became black.

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*sobs*

That was emotional to write.

Thoughts on the dicks? (Cal&ni)

Thoughts on Michael? :(

Next chapter will be coming soon!:D