Suicide / / muke [SLOW UPDATES]

1.5

[its Friday on here okay.]

1.5

|| mikey's pov ||

"So Michael how have you've been lately?" Mr.Bruins asked.  Calum and Niall made a appointment for me with a therapist yesterday. They say that I haven't been the same since my mum left me. And yes Calum, Niall and I are friends again, They apologized for leaving and took me out for ice cream. Luke doesn't bother me anymore. He's been nice to me since he then. Which is great.

lie to him , tell him that you're okay

"I've been okay, " I lied with a fake smile.

"So, how many times have you attempted suicide?" Mr.Bruins asked. I look down playing with my oversized wool sweater and whispered.

"Twice."

"So I heard your mum committed suicide couple weeks ago." I nodded while holding back some tears. I look up seeing Mr.Bruins writing on a piece of paper.

"Okay Michael, Do you hear any voices in your head sometimes?" He asked. As I nodded.

"What do they say to you? Do they insult you? " i nodded again.

keep nodding precious

After Mr.Bruins asking a bunch of questions he told me I was done for the day and told me to come back next week.

When I got home I let out a sigh and decided to watch some Disney films. Finding Nemo reminds me of my mum.
Every weekend we always watch it with some popcorn and m&m's .

A smile formed on my face on the part where dory sang 'just keep swimming'. it was funny. even my mum didn't care about me but when her shifts were over she surprisedly does.

everyday i ask myself why she left. was it my fault? did I cause this? A single tear trailed down my cheek as I wipe it and took out my phone.

one message; ***-***-***

a confused face appeared on me than entered my passcode. i read the message seeing it was from Luke.

***-***-*** ; heyo michael! how r u? :3 oh! and this is luke

I sighed and decided to leave it and carry on with the movie that was still playing. minutes later another text came.

***-***-*** ; c'mon mikey don't leave me on read :(

me ; don't call me that

***-***-*** ; why not? It's a cute nickname :) or kitten? yeah kitten!

i blush at the pet name and decided to reply.

me ; why are you even talking to me?

***-***-*** ; bc I wanted to talk to u ;-; duh

me ; fuck off luke

I tossed my cracked phone across the couch than groaned. rubbing my face with my hands in stress. why does he have to talk to me. it's annoying. very.

the film finding nemo ended, I got up and lazily walked to my room. it was quiet without my mum. no music playing, no 'mikey c'mere could you help me?', just silent.

it was weird that the front door was open I walked to the door than closed it with a lock.

"michael"

I heard a faint whisper behind me. I turned around just seeing a empty dark hallway. a small gasp came from my mouth as i felt something across my foot. chills began to grow down my spine as I run back to the living room and turned on the lamp. which turned into turning on all the lights in the living room.

i grabbed my mums broom and slowly walked to the hallway hoping nothing would scare me.

i heard the closet door close in my mums room as I walk in there while turning on the light switch.

when I got to the closet I heard little laughs. they sounded familiar. but I just don't know.

i slowly opened the door to someone attacking me. I started to scream for help as the person with a black hoodie and a black mask on puts his hand on my mouth covering screams. he was on top of me than he continued to take off his mask while bursting
into laughter. I was confused.

until I saw who is was.

luke.

"what the fuck luke!" I yelled looking at Luke who was laughing his ass of.

"y-you fucking scared me! why did you do that!" I breathed out while my hand on my chest trying to catch my breath.

"because you told me to fuck off so I decided to get revenge" Luke said while sitting on the floor with me crossing his long ass legs.

now that is what you call daddy long legs. my eyes widen at my thoughts as I shake my head.

"well you went to fucking far hemwing" i snapped. while getting up about to walk out the room until luke grabbed my hand causing me to turn to him.

"Wait, Can I just talk to you? Properly?" luke asked with a pouty face.

"o-okay."

"okay, when i first saw you I couldn't help but stare at you. I didn't know how to talk to you since you were my crush. so my dumb ass head had to chose bullying. i was so fucking stupid for doing that shit mikey, and I'm very sorry. I know you will not forgive me but can you at least think of it? I'll give you time, I won't rush you or anything. " luke apologized.

"okay." i looked down to my knees as luke spoke.

"are you done thinking yet?" i look up to luke with a smile, yes a smile.

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Hey guys! as you could see I started making when do I update thing.  and it's almost 1am so it's Saturday.

[updated]
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Next chapter on Wednesday .

[qotd: when's your birthday?]

[aotd: march15]