20 days [l.s.]

day 15

december 18

dear louis,

it's been so long. i cannot breathe nor can i sleep. i miss you so damn much. they won't let me go back home yet. they said they need to make sure if i can be on my own. they asked me about my family. i told them about that fatal crash that killed mum and dad. and i also told them about gemma. but since she's studying abroad, i told them not to tell her.

i told them that i lived with you but you left. they think i did what i did because of it. but i told them it was only because i could not sleep. but they would not budge. they asked me about you and honestly, it made me cry. the panicky kind. i hope they let me out soon. and i hope you're waiting for me at home with a welcome banner put out front. i don't know how long i can make it without you, lou, because i love you. so much. so so much.

h.x