Love Him...Forever

Goodbye

Shine feel conscious in his stare, luckily, Shine change on her clothes before they leave the house. She think that if she immediately avoid Yuzuru's eyes it will make everything more obvious for him, so, she pretend not to be looking at him instead. She turn around after a second or two and hold Allen's hand —she walk normally away from him again.

Allen frown but he is not saying a word as Shine is pulling him until they reach the parking lot, where David is waiting.

"Hana!" Allen said as he pull her back  to him — that stop her.

Shine put her head down and without looking at Allen, she start crying.  Allen lift her chin and  wipe her tears.

"Do you want to leave?" Allen concernedly asked.

Shine nodded while she sob. Allen lead her to their car.

David open the door for Shine and Allen — Allen help Shine get in first then he follow. David closed the door and move to the driver seat.

"Home?"David asked.

"Yes please David" Allen answer.

But Shine looked at Allen and shake her head.

"Where do you want to go?" Allen asked.

"Can...we...just stay here for a while?" Shine answer.

David look at the rare mirror and he caught Allen's eyes. He needed no word for him to understand that Allen and Shine needs privacy. David step out of the car to give Allen and Shine space that they needed.

"What now?"Allen asked and he turn to face Shine —Shine is facing down and she is  playing her hands.

"Do you think—" Shine hesitantly starts. Allen give a light squeeze at Shine's hand  as he listen to Shine until she can finish.

Shine inhale as she gather her courage to continue.

"How long or how many times will I have to let him go before we can solve this? or can we really solve this?" Shine asked and she lift her head to face Allen. Shine can't deny her frustration about her situation and her tears are the proof.

Allen can't help but to feel sorry for Shine. He move closer to her and embrace her tightly, her tears start to wet his polo shirt.

Shine's crying become louder as Allen to calm her in his arms.

"Shhh Shine, we are closer to getting him" Allen reassure Shine. He releases Shine from his embrace and hold her in the shoulders instead while he looked in her eyes.

"Shine, we already come this far. It's such a waste if we give up especially now that we almost know everything that we needed about him" Allen explain to Shine —Allen is like talking to a child. Shine nodded while Allen wipe her tears one more time.

"So just endure everything it a little more"Allen added.

Shine hugged Allen again.

"Thank you Allen. Sorry if I am like this again" she said.

"It's okay!" Allen said as he move his hand up and down on Shine's back.  Shine then release Allen from her embrace.

"It's just that hearing Yuzu say my name and hugging me tightly, want me to just reveal everything to him and stay in his arms forever" Shine explain.

Allen cupped her face and looked directly in her eyes –without any judgement.

"So brave of you to choose the other way around. If it was another person in that situation, I doubt if they would have done what you did. They will probably reveal everything to him already" Allen said with a smile.

Shine smile after hearing Allen's words. Allen put down her window and signal David to come back inside. David sit in the driver seat and check his rare mirror. He looked at Allen and Allen nodded indicating that it's okay for them to go home now.
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When they reach the house it almost 5 am already.

"Thank you" Shine said and give Allen a kissed in the cheeks before heading to her room. Allen blushed —because people tend to be more sensitive when they are sleep deprive.

David hold him in the shoulder.

"I never seen you like that to a girl before"

Allen smile at him and they head to their rooms.

Meanwhile, when Shine reach her room, she immediately get herself ready to sleep- she brush her teeth, washed her face and change into he PJ's. But when she went to her enormous bed she suddenly don't feel sleepy at all.

Shine sit instead and bring out her Shine's mobile —the one Allen handed her earlier– from her purse.

"What did Allen read in them?" She asked herself.

15-02-2015 3:30 pm

I will see you again...I am Excited...oh wait I am more than excited..I am ECSTATIC! I LOVE YOU SHINE, A MILLION TIMES or UNTIL WORDS IS NOT ENOUGH FOR ME TO EXPRESS IT♥

For the first time, from the moment Shine run away from him, Shine is able to smile genuinely.

"Oh Yuzu, my love, I feel the same way" Shine said to herself and she also bring out her Hana's mobile just to check if she got a text from Yuzuru and she did.

Yuzuru Hanyu

Seeing how you didn't come to the airport earlier is a clear message to me that I am wrong. I should just forget you, Hana. Sorry, I really thought you are Shine, my Shine. It's not just because of your physical appearance but I can see Shine in your eyes —the shy and smiling Shine. I hear her in your voice when you laugh, when you get 'angry'. The way you text me that "I AM YUZURU HANYU, THE GREATEST" also reminded me of Shine. So, you can't blame me for thinking that you are her —Shine. But if you insist that you are HANA and not her, I can't do anything about that but to let you go. You see HANA, I can ONLY LOVE SHINE and no one else.I guess,this is GOODBYE for us.

After Shine read his message she begun to cry again. She is having a hard time breathing and pounded her chest. This is what she wants after all, for Yuzuru to think that Shine is gone.

"This is what I wanted but why does it hurt so much" Shine said in herself.

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Feeling heavy too? I do :-(