Night Changes
by One Direction
“This is just a massive, massive thank you to all of our fans,” Payne says. They just done performing their last song in The X Factor U.K. “Obviously you guys made all this happen for us and we can’t believe the way that you’ve supported us over the last five years. Today’s a very special day for us because this is like the last part of our first chapter. But a massive thank you, honestly. We cannot believe you guys. You’re amazing, the most dedicated people I think we’ve ever seen in our lives, so thank you for enjoying us over the years. And I hope there’s many more years to come.”
Hindi ko na napigilan yung sunod-sunod na pagpatak ng luha ko.
And I saw, they take their final bow.
Napagulgol na ako ng tuluyan. Wala na. Tapos na. Hindi ko na ulit makikita ang One Direction— for the next eighteen months.
Siguro para sa iba napakababaw na rason ito para iyakan but damn, parang mahigit isang taon magiging black and white ang buhay ko dahil sa “well earn break” ng 1D. Fangirl feels.
Nakita kong sabay sabay na bumaba sila Liam, Niall, Louise at Harry KO sa stage.. sa stage kung saan unang beses ko din silang nasilayang sabay sabay na umakyat for their auditon five years ago. And ofcourse, lima pa sila nun.. kasama pa si Zayn.
I can’t take it anymore so I just closed my laptop. Padapa akong humiga at sinubsob ko yung mukha ko sa unan. And I burst into tears again.
Ang sakit lang kasi na yung naging inspirasyon ko for I don’t know how long already ay bigla nalang mawawala. Though di pa naman sila nag disband, still eighteen months silang mawawala. EIGHTEEN HELL MONTHS!
To be honest, hindi ko naman talaga gusto ang One Direction.. dati. Hindi ko sila nun pinapansin. Maybe because I found that it’s crazy to be crazy for this lads. Parang ang OA lang na halos magpakamatay yung mga fangirls nila para lang makita o mahawakan sila.
But one night, while listening to radio, biglang pinatugtog yung isang kanta ng One Direction.. yung What Makes You Beautiful. Tinatamad ako nung tumayo para ilipat yung frequency kaya hinayaan ko nalang na yun ang tumutunog.
Their music filled my room.
Yung lyrics ng kanta parang binubulong nila sa tenga ko. Parang nasa paligid ko lang sila and they’re serenading me. Weird yet.. magical.
Hindi ko alam kung anong meron sa kanta nila but it’s.. addicting. Pagkatapos nung kanta bigla akong nag crave na pakinggan ulit yun. Pakinggan ng paulit ulit ulit ulit ulit. And that’s the start of next chapter of my life. Me as a die-hard-fan for One Direction, specially for the man who capturedy heart bigtime.. Harry Styles.
Lahat sila gwapo, alright but I found Harry quite different. Yung simpleng pagtitig niya lang, pag ngiti at ultimo pagsasalita ay nagpapakabog sa puso ko ng bonggang bongga.
I know this is crazy but I think I fall inlove with him. For real.
Dahil sa pagod, hindi ko namalayang nakatulog pala ako. At hindi na nagising hanggang umabot ang June 2017 kung saan nagbalik na ulit ang One Direction. Pero syempre joke lang yan. Kung pwede lang sana.
I tried to be okay. Sinubukan kong tumawa at maging cheerful sa kabila ng katotohanan na wala na akong makikitang One Direction sa twitter, fb at youtube. Talo pa nito yung heartbreak na naranasan ko noon. I tried. Sinubukan ko naman talaga pero I can’t. Hindi ko kaya. Bigla bigla nalang akong nagbre-breakdown everytime that 1D crossed in my mind.
“Lyuna..”
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