Memories

10.20.15

Nothing makes sense.
It hadn't for a long time.
The stop sings didn't make sense.
The movies didn't make sense.
The sky didn't make sense.
The people didn't make sense.
The books didn't make sense.

The only thing that made sense was black and white.
I saw my clothes in black and white.
I saw my friends in black and white.
I saw my work in black and white.
I even saw myself in black and white.

Then I looked at you.
And for the first time I saw color.
The color of your bright brwne eyes.
Taking one look into them and every single thing bursted into color.

My clothes.
My friends.
My work.
Myself.

All because of you things started making sense.
The stop signs.
The movies.
The sky.
The people.
The books.

One look into your eyes and I was stuck in my tracks.
There was something about you that was...different.
The way your hair curled at the end.
The way your veins popped out when you laughed your hardest.
The way your smile looked crooked and adorable.
The way your radiant browneys grew brighter in the sunlight.

You were mine.
When I was dying inside.
You were there.
You slowly brought me back to life.
I was yours.

When we kissed my breath was taken away from me.
But was given right back.
You showed me how the sky was blue instead of black.
You showed me that life was full of wonderest things.

In my darkest points.
You brought me out of the dark and into the light.
I saw the forever in your eyes.

But you only saw months.
Slowly you took me back into the darkness.
You slowly showed me that the sky was black instead of blue.
You slowly showed me that the wonderest things could kill you.
You took my breath away and never gave it back.

When I looked at the stop signs they didn't make sense.
Or the movies.
Or the people.
or the sky.
Or the books.
Non of it made sense anymore.

Afraid of falling back into oblivion.
I looked at everything.
My clothes looked black and white.
Just like my friends.
My work.
Myself.
(Not mine::( )