Memories

10:03pm

Isolation
1 word that breaks me.
I hate distance. I hate not feeling like I can't do anything for somebody.
I hate being pushed away.
I hate it i hate it i hate it.
Maybe that's why he did it.

He knew I fear isolation.
I told my self he didn't mean to do this to me.
It was an accident.
He cares about me.
He loves me.
He wouldn't hurt me.
He needs me, just as much as I do him.

But he wasn't isolating everyone.
In fact; he probably didn't mean to do it to me.
He let her in and showed her every piece of him that belonged to me.
She put that wall up.
The one that separates us to this day.

I'd like to break that wall.
Even of it broke every bone in my body.
Every other piece of me is messed up.
Why not be messed up in his arms?

But that's not my place anymore.
It's hers.
She's his mess.
I bet he doesn't isolated her.
Isolation hurts.

Please....don't push me out. Don't isolate me, I need you...