Reflections

Part 5

I'm so sorry for the wait,I have no excuses. But hey important chapter up ahead.

And talk later they did. Michael had barley gotten inside his room before Ashton came through the door.

"Geez,ever heard of knocking?" Michael asks,clearly trying to buy some time.

"No,but I have heard of stalling which is exactly what you are doing right now." The elder backfires.

Michael sighs in defeat,taking a seat on the bed , Ashton smiles sympathetically and does the same.

"You think it's time to talk about it?" He asks softly,not wanting to push him. Michael shrugs in response.

"I won't judge you mate." He prompts
"I know."

There's a long pause,no one says anything for a few minutes,no one moves. Michael's head is going a hundred miles and hour and tears are burning like acid behind his eyes.

"This is it." He thinks and takes a deep breath. Ashton who had been sitting quietly turns to his friend expectantly,noticing his change in demeanour.

"Okay I'll tell you." Oh god here it comes.
"I don't think I'm a guy." Fuck fuck fuck.
"I want to be a girl." Fuck.
"I AM a girl."
The whole house is silent,deafeningly silent, the tension and nothingness is pressing down on him like a heavy wait and everything goes blurry. Suddenly all he can see is Ashton's face, expressionless and starring right at him,that's all it takes for the tears to spill over. Tears roll down his cheeks and sobs wrack his whole body, jolting him forward with each sob. He can't see,He can't breath, He is a SHE.

Ashton leaps into action getting over the shock epretty quickly, he pulls Michael over to his chest and holds him close,letting him cry.

"Michael,it's okay, you're okay." He says,trying to mask the worry in his voice for sympathy .

Ashton's voice was unexpected in the the heavy silence of Michael's head,his crying stopped almost as abruptly as it started.

"Yeah,it's okay..is it okay?" Michael as skeptically.

"Why wouldn't it be?" The curly headed one puzzles.

"Well aren't you gonna kick me out of the band or something?" The vulnerable one says,worrying his bottom lip .

"Why would we do that? It's your pronouns that are changing not your personality. This isn't gonna make me ,or any of the guys think any differently." Ashton says wholeheartedly.

"Promise?" It sounds so pathetic coming from his mouth but he has to be sure.

"Promise." He nods. "But mikey?"
"Hmm?"
"You have to tell the other lads."
Michael nods,he knows.

-- ------ time ------lapse------- --

Ashton didn't leave his side the whole night , they stayed cuddled together all night and that's exactly how they were found the next morning.

"Wake up faggots!" Calum yells as he and Luke flop down onto the bed ,causing annoyed moans to come from the sleeping band members.

"S'too early,m'sleepy."Michael muttered,pulling the duvet tighter around himself,pulling them away from Ashton in the process,who rolled over and rubbed his eyes.

"G'morning lads." He says,sleep still heavy in his voice.

"Noo,s'not morning I'm tired." Michael argues feebly.

"Mate you've been asleep since,what?10pm." Calum chimes in.

"You seemed really quiet at dinner , you okay?" Luke adds in.

Michael freezes, he felt ambushed,he didn't know what he was supposed to say to that. "I..." Ashton squeezes his hand tightly in what Michael assumes is supposed to be reassurance but in reality just makes his heart skip a beat and his stomachs flip.

"Actually something is bothering me and it's kinda a big deal so do you mind...?" Michael gestures to the bed expecting them to sit with him while he struggled to keep his breathing steady. He looks up from his sweaty palms to see everyone staring at him expectantly. He takes a deep breath.

"Okaysobasicallyimtransgenderokaysorrydon'thatemeplease." His entire face was red and his heart was beating at a dangerously fast pace.

"Slow down bud we can't hear what you said." Calum said,Michael looked up in shock to see them looking back at him,worry and love shinning in their eyes. He feels confidence slowly building in his stomach and takes another deep breath.

"I said"he pauses." I'm transgender." He squeezes his eyes just as soon as he finishes speaking not wanting to see their reactions.

There is silence for a about half a minute until it is broken.

"Okay." It's Calum that speaks first.

"So you're a girl ? Like female pronouns and shit?" Luke asks

"Y-yeah, She,her,hers." Michael nods slightly taken a back by how easy this was.

"Okay,cool no problem."

"So..you're fine with it?" He asks slowly.

"Why wouldn't we be? You're still the same old Michael,your gender changed not your personality." Calum says,sounding a lot like Ashton did the night before.

Michael nods,smiling slightly at the boys.

"Is there anything else we should know?" Calum questions.

"Like what?"

"I don't know like do you want us to go take you to speak to a doctor or help you tell management ? " Calum begins.

"Or we could take you shopping for dresses?" Luke butts in enthusiastically.

" Maybe call you by a different name?" Ashton adds in.

Michael shakes the shock from his face and tries to stop the tears from welling up in his eyes. He is completely overwhelmed by the support they rest of the band are giving him but he really shouldn't be surprised.

"Or if it's too quick we understand.." Ashton began,taking Michael's silence for discomfort.

"Mia."
"Mia?" Luke asks with a puzzled look on his face.

"C-can you call me Mia."

Luke nods smiling.
"Yeah-yeah we can." Then he turns to Calum. " Calum this is my best friend Mia."

"Well it's a pleasure to met you Madame." Calum says grinning at her.

And that's when she looses it, a single tear rolls down her cheek, because they didn't leave and they don't hate her.

"it's a pretty name." Ashton whispers next to her.

"Thank you." She says. "For everything."

This is still shorter than I would have liked but hey I like this chapter.

Can you comment what pairing you want for this, originally it was gonna be malum but I feel like Mashton would work really well so yeah let me know. I'll try update before the end of the year 😂