Only you

Chapter 40

Part 40

Dakota's POV

I brush Jamie's hair aside from his forehead and make sure he's covered with the duvet. It's eight in the morning, I won't wake him up yet. He needs to sleep.

I smile when I see how Zep is trying to get under the duvet. We just came back from a walk. He doesn't like cold, so at weather like that he wants to get home as quick as he can.

Making sure I won't disturb Jamie I help Zeppelin hide, covering him with a warm duvet.

I grin. My two beloved boys.

As much as I want to stay here and watch him I have to get up and make breakfast. I don't know when David will wake up, but if Eloise is with him now, she will want to eat something.

She's a morning person.

Though I'm not sure if she's here now. I didn't hear David yesterday when he came back.

Slowly I get up and make my way back to the kitchen. I have to make this breakfast anyway.

I open the fridge and think for a moment. Maybe some sandwiches ? With this ham and tomato. Jamie likes them that way.

I put all the ingredients on the kitchen top.

From time to time I like to have a free moment to think. I have a clear head then and I can organize everything in my mind that is in a mess.

I prefer to deal with my problems and worries by myself. When I finally figure out that I need help I'll ask for it.

But at first I want to try to do it alone.

So what are my problems ? Well, actually I have only one.

One but very big. The one I hate so much.

And this problem calls Matt.

I must say I'm a little scared.

The last time I've had any sign of him was about two weeks ago. I was really close to get a heart attack then.

He sent me an invitation for his concert, his and his band.

I was really surprised that he sent me a letter. Not a message, he also didn't call and didn't meet with me. Thankfuly.

I don't know how I would react if I saw him. I don't want that. No. Not when I'm alone. And then I was.

I didn't tell Jamie about that. And I won't.

Maybe I should but I won't. I really don't want to worry him.

I know we suppose to tell each other everything as a couple. He keeps telling me that, but this time is different.

I threw it away as soon as I got this. Jamie even doesn't know about that. I want this to stay like that.

If he would find out about it right now he could thought that I don't trust him, which is not true of course. I do trust him.

And I care about him. I want to protect him from my past, from Matt.

The good thing is that since then I haven't had any other message from him. But it also makes me angry.

I never know when he will want to come up again. When he will do something again. It really kills me.

Of course now I have new bodyguard and he's nice, but I would prefer him not to follow me everywhere I go.

His name is Tom, and I think he's about fifty. It was Jamie who chose him. I even wonder if wanted my bodyguard to be older than me, so he wouldn't be interested in me.