Long way Down {COMPLETED}

Three

"Just breathe," Taylor said grabbing both of my shoulders backstage. "You have nothing to worry about you look great," she gestured to my dress.

My dress was black and slick. There was black sequences in the bust and the rest just fell. It fit me perfectly.

"Ana it's time. Enter left stage you'll exit right lets go lets go!" A male I did not know rushed me away from Taylor.

On stage all I seen was him. It was like my eyes just were a magnet to him. When our eyes locked and a smirk speared on his face I had to draw my eyes away. I can feel myself sweat as I searched to see my mom or maybe Taylor was back in her seat. She was. I found her holding my mothers hand and I knew they were just as nervous as me.

The music began and I began singing Stone Cold. Throughout the performance I noticed Harry standing and exiting the arena. My heart was already sinking and I couldn't breath. When it was over I noticed I was crying and ran off the stage as the crowd stood clapping.

I didn't exactly know where I was going but I kept running with my hand covering my face so the pictures wouldn't be so bad. I continued on my way until I ran into someone. Before I got a chance to remove myself from the body their arms wrapped around me.

"It'll be okay," I heard his voice as his embrace got tighter I stood there in Harry's arms while cameras flashed all around us. When I felt the tears stop I wiggled out of his embrace.

"How are you?" He asked wiping my eyes.

"I've been better," I tried smiling up at him but his face remained flat and his eyes were intense.

"That was really something out there," he grabbed my hand and we began to walk," well I was up when it dropped last night so I have heard it but live wow. It was deep," he removed his hand from mine and through it over my shoulders. We walked through the door of the arena where everyone was seated. Although there was another performer on stage all eyes were on Harry and I. "I will walk you to your seat then can we talk later? There's an after party at the Metz Hotel, come?" He looked down at me.

"Yeah that'll work. I think I was going anyway for Taylor," I said as he guided me to my seat. I'm not sure how he knew where I was seated because the first time I saw him was while I was on stage.

"Well hello Harry," my mother said to us as we approached.

Harry dropped my dress quickly and sat down in the empty seat next to my mother. They talked for a few more moments until Taylor was escorted backstage by a large woman. Taylor was presenting an award, the only one I was nominated for. I quickly sat in her seat while Harry was still occupying mine. I thought about how weird it was that I even got nominated for best song at the BMA's when I was American.

"Ana, do you remember that?" my mother caught my attention while I was clapping for Taylor as she walked on stage.

"No what was that? Sorry I was not listening," I said turning to my mother and Harry. He looked good wearing a white floral print suit. So Harry.

"Last New Years in New York when we ended up performing together," Harry laughed and I watched his smile crinkle the corners of his eyes.

"Oh yeah," I recalled the memory. "How did that even happen? Like I remember that you and the boys were after me but I can't remember the details," I lied as all the eyes in the arena were on me along with a camera showing my face on a screen behind Taylor. I quickly smiled in the camera as Harry put his two fingers behind my head creating bunny ears. I swatted his hand away and blew kisses to everyone.

When Taylor went on to say a few other names I have never heard of before I decided to actually pay attention since there was a small chance that I could win.

"Are you nervous? Sitting with the competition is not smart Styles," I said in Harry's ear as Taylor announced One Direction as the last nominee. The cameras returned and split the screen on Harry, who had bunny ears behind his head as well from myself. The other part of the screen were the rest of the boys who were smiling.

"Not at all," he said in my ear while the camera was still on us. We heard a few awes and things became awkward.

"And this years best song goes to....." Taylor opened the envelope and Harry grabbed my hand, I don't think that he noticed until I shot my eyes over at him. "Ana Smith," Taylor finished and my heart jumped.

I looked over at Harry who immediately shoved me into his arms. Once I was on my feet I started bouncing a little.

"Do you want me to grab your dress?" Harry asked as I began to walk. I nodded and he grabbed my train walking me up to the stage.

My smile was unable to leave my face. The closer I got to Taylor the more nervous I got. I turned back at Harry and smiled as he continued carrying my dress.

When we got to Taylor I jumped in her arms a little she was excited for me as well. After I hugged Taylor I turned and hugged Harry and said thank you to him. I grabbed the mic and the award. Taylor exited the stage and Harry took a few steps behind me. I am assuming he wanted to hold my dress down the stairs, which is clever considering I am the clumsiest human on Earth.

"First I need to thank the fans," I said in the mic to the crowd. "I am sorry I literally can not believe this right now," I said with a shaky voice. I could feel tears in my eyes, again, "Sorry I really don't want to cry again," I said wiping a tear away. " I can seriously say I was not expecting to win. I am so shocked you know, like I am American," I said trying to dry my eyes as everyone laughed. I turned back to Harry and he was laughing as well. "Anyways thanks to my management and producers and thank you to the other nominees. One direction you guys are incredible and my minds blown that I am even in this category with you boys," I turned back to Harry who was bowing ," thanks everyone," I turned to walk away as Harry grabbed my dress behind me and cameras flashed and awes aroused from the audience.

I turned back shaking my head at Harry  but he was raising his eyebrows with a smirk on his lips. When I got back to my seat Harry said goodbye to my mother and told Taylor and I that he will see us later.

"What the hell was that?" Taylor asked once I was settled into my seat.

"I don't know," I said honestly. This was the first time I had seen Harry since the separation and it felt like I had woken up with him that morning.

"You were a mess Ana," Taylor said biting her fresh mani. "You completely broke. Like that was so hard to watch you go through."

Taylor has always been honest. In her music and humor. She was right, being with Harry made me feel things I never wanted to feel. He made me feel. I don't hate him or anything it's just I love him. I love him too much. It scares me. Everything scares me.

We finished the show in silence and I waited anxiously until I would see Harry again.