Bts Imagines [ Book 2 ] EDITING IS ON

J-hope

"I'm tired of you ignoring me. I'm tired of you being cold with me." Jung Hoseok angrily said as you were about to push your entrance door.

You stopped and tears well up in your eyes.

"Why are you acting like this only with me? Where did I go wrong?"

Your eyes fell to your feet.

"Won't you answer me?" He half shouted.

"What are you expecting from me?" Your voice trembled.

"A lot more than you give to me."

"What am I supposed to give you? We aren't even in a relationship."

"You know how I feel about you, and it looks like you're playing with me."

This was too much: you turned around, too bad for your tears starting to roll down your cheeks.

"Do you think it's easy for me to deal with you?"

"What did you just say? I can leave you alone if it's what you want." He said turning around to continue is path.

"It's not what I meant and what I want."

"Then what do you want?"

You sighed as he looked straight at you.

"I know you want me to be your girlfriend but that's not easy, you know?"

"Why? Don't you like me? Am I too ugly or something?"

You wanted to reassure him about all of these wrong ideas he had in mind because of course, it was none of those reasons. But as soon as you saw him starting to cry, you became weak and empty. Seeing Hoseok crying is really scarce and it feels so unreal to see him cry right in front of you now.

"No, of course no... I do like you but..."

"But?" He sighed as the clouds covered the sky.

"It's so complicated... It's not about you, really; don't worry for that. It's all about me."

"What do you mean?" He looked shocked as he swallowed his tears back.

"I've already had a boyfriend before and I'm still not other it. Though we broke up about six months now, he's still in my mind every day. I can't help it." The amount of tears on your cheeks grew two fold as those words came out of your mouth.

"I didn't know..." He looked confused.

"Please let me explain more, don't cut me off." You sobbed before taking a deep breath and continuing"We have been in a relationship for eight months. Some will say it is a lot, and some will say it represents nothing. So can someone tell me if it represents nothing, how could this still hurt this much?" Dozens of tears were spilling on your cheeks.

"I loved him so passionately, it just can't erase. I don't think I would be able to forget him someday. He brought so many things in my life. At first it was positives things. He made me laugh and smile for no reasons. He pushed me to give the best I could, he changed my habits so my daily life wasn't boring anymore and it was so pleasant. I can't even put words to define how grateful I was for him to having changing me this way. It was like I was breathing a new air, a really fresh air without any toxics molecules. But then for some reasons, it all changed. He was acting cold and he started to reject me. He was hanging out with some other girls so I thought I wasn't pretty enough. I started to think I was missing everything he was searching for in a girl. My days became darker as I wasn't smiling anymore but started to cry at night, waiting for him to call me, to text me. To say he is alright and take me on a date soon. But none of this happened. It was like he was enjoying knowing I was suffering in my bed every night as he was probably kissing prettier girls. The pain was getting deeper day by day. The air wasn't pure anymore; it was full filled with his toxics acts and bullshit. At school, everyone knew I was that poor girl who was so deep in love with her boyfriend; she wouldn't break up with him because even if he was doing the worst things on earth she would still love him and stay with him. One day I was so fed up with him I called him and asked him to come over. I was crying as hard as I am now as I was telling him I was so done with him but you know what?" You ruffled your hair, looking up to try to swallow your tears with a sob.