And Then There Were None (COMPLETED)

Messy Feelings

I head into the kitchen and heat up some leftovers from last nights dinner. I'm not in the mood to cook right now.

"Food's ready!" I shout. Maybe if I ignore what just happened it will go away. We eat in silence and I put the dirty dishes in a tub of water to sit overnight. I don't feel like washing anything today either.

I head over to my room intending to sleep there but Renji-kun grabs my hand and pulls me into his room. Not again, so soon. I panic.

"I don't care what you say but tonight you sleeping with me." He throws me a pair of his pajamas. Oh, thank god it wasn't something else.

"Why after what you just did?" I eye the bed suspiciously.

"Don't worry, I promise I won't do anything bad tonight. Think of it as when we slept together when we were kids."

"How the hell am I supposed to think of it like that?" I ask incredulously, were already both adults.

"You just will." He insists.

I give up seeing as he won't budge. I don't want to get pinned to the bed again.

"Just turn around alright." I glare at him.

"Ok." He turns around I pull on his pajamas quickly which are too big for me.

Once we're both under the covers he hugs me to his chest like he did the first time I met him. He whispers softly in my ear yet still quite seductively, "Although we might be sleeping just a little bit differently since we were kids."

I ignore that and just close my eyes, snuggling up against him and resting my head on his arm. I don't know why but ever since we were kids I've always been able to sleep better when I'm with him, in his arms. Guess that hasn't changed, and with that I fall asleep.

After that day Renji-kun hasn't made a move to touch me.

I don't really known why he's left me alone but I'm grateful for that because it gives me more time to think about everything.

The next few days pass in a blur one day leading into the next. And with each passing day I only grow more confused.

"Hey! Shota-kun! Wait up!" A voice pulls me from my thoughts.

"Hey Ichiro-kun!" It's felt like a while since the last time I saw him.

"What's up with you?" He asks, taking a good look at me.

"Nothing why?" Could he have sensed what I've been feeling?

"You've seemed a bit out of it lately." He looks at me worriedly.

"Oh really?" After what Renji-kun did I had pretty much gone on autopilot thinking about what he'd done. And what it meant.

"Yea. Hey seriously. Today why don't you and me go to karaoke with the guys? This time for real. You need a break from whatever's been on your mind." Guess Ichiro-kun picked up on what's bothering me.

"Alright." I do need a break. I'll just send a text to Renji-kun that I won't be home.

[Shota://Hey. I'm going out with friends. I won't be home til later. There's some food in the fridge so heat it up.]

There, that should be enough. I don't know why I didn't tell him Ichiro-kun was with me, maybe because he told me not to talk about him. I don't know. It should matter though.

"C'mon Shota." Ichiro-kun calls after me once the guys are ready to go.

I hesitate a little, thinking of Renji-kun. "Alright! I'm coming!" It'll be fine.

All the guys are horsing around and singing different songs.

"Want a drink?" Ichiro-kun asks holding out a plastic cup to me which I take into my hands.

"Alcohol?" I check with him because I don't think we should be drinking, we're still underage. I take a look at the strangely colored liquid in the cup.

"Yeah, but come on loosen up. You've had a lot on your plate." Ichiro-kun smiles.

I hold the cup in my hands, swishing the liquid, and think about it. "Yeah your right." And I finish the drink in one gulp. The after taste is a bit bitter for me though.

"It's great that you came Shota. I'd been wondering about how you've been. Everything going alright?" Ichiro-kun questions me.

Maybe it's because of the drink but I do want to talk about what's going on with Ichiro-kun, maybe he could help me sort out my feelings.

"Ichiro-kun, what would you do if the person you thought of as a brother suddenly confesses to you, saying that he's been holding back these feelings for years? Hypothetically, of course." I cough on the last part realizing I wasn't being vague enough.

"Where did this come from?" Ichiro-kun raises an eyebrow at me.

"From nowhere of course, it's a hypothetical question of course." My voice starts to slur a little at the end.

"I think maybe you've had too much to drink." He takes the empty cup out of my hands.

"He-he. C'mon. I-Im nut dwe-drunk." I slur again, more noticeably this time and everything starts to turn a little woozy.

"Yes you are."

Nolo contendere. No contest.

"Just answer the question!" I really want to know what Ichiro-kun would do.

"Hmm. I don't really know. It depends on the person really. If I like that person enough I would honestly try to answer their feelings. For things like this you can't drag it out." Ichiro-kun looks off into space.

What he said sobered me up and I realized he was right. I do like Renji-kun and what he told me shouldn't change how I feel of towards him. I shouldn't disrespect him and try to come up with an answer to his feelings. The more I drag this out, the more it will hurt the both of us.

"You look better now. Did the drink wear off?" Ichiro-kun takes a long look at me.

"Yeah and thanks for the advice." I smile at Ichiro-kun. I'm grateful because what he said eased my mind.

"That's good." Ichiro-kun leans over and kisses me on the lips. I'm stunned. He winks. "Cute little boys shouldnt be sad."

"Yea." I smile. To me Ichiro-kun really is a friend to me so his kiss doesn't bother me at all. It's Renji's that I'm worried about, I can still the faint trace of his lips on mine.

"What the hell do you two think your doing!?" Renji-kun's voice booms behind me.
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