And Then There Were None (COMPLETED)

Truth

We had attended the same elementary school, Jr. High, and Highschool together. In my younger years I don't really recall a moment I didn't spend with with Renji-kun.

The more I think about it...my mind starts noticing the little details. When we were young anytime other kids tried to play with me Renji-kun would grab my hand and take me away from them saying we were going exploring.

In middle school at the beginning of the year kids would come up to me and ask to be friends. Renji-kun was always around even if we had different classes and a different schedule. Eventually the kids stopped coming and the ones who had asked me to be their friends drifted away. I remember one time asking one of then why he wasn't talking to me anymore a d he said, "You're nice but I don't think well be able to be friends."

He looked put down at having to say that but ran away after talking to me.

Renji-kun had suddenly appeared behind me then.

"Whose the guy?" He'd asked me.

I had turned to look at him. "He used to be my friend but I guess not anymore."

"I'm sure you'll find a new one, but at least you have me."

"Yeah."

Then in high school kids hadn't come near me at all. Renji-kun had more classes with me and we had the same lunch. We even had our own spot that we'd hang out at. The roof of the school.

"Want to ask Himura-kun if he wants to come up to?" I had asked Renji-kun one time.

"No." He said it so immediately and with such force that I was shocked. He got this look in his eyes that made me think I should keep my mouth shut but I couldn't help myself.

I got the courage to ask, "Why?"

He told me. "He might be busy."His expression had flipped all of a sudden and he turned back into the Renji-kun that I knew.

All those cases seem weird when I think about it.

"Do you get it now Shota-kun?" Ichiro-kun's voice snaps me out of my flashbacks.

"Get what?" I question him.

"That Renji-kun is controlling your life."

"No he's not!" I shout at him without thinking. I'm surprised at my outburst.

"Its obvious that he is. You just dont see it yet. Look, are you sure you want to keep letting him do this to you? I like you Shota-kun, why don't you go out with me?"

"Are for real?" I look at him dumbfounded.

"I've like you for a long time, why not me?" He's saying something similar to what Renji-kun told me but I'm sure Renji-kun has liked me longer than Ichiro-kun has. Ichiro-kun moves abruptly and kisses me before I can even make a move to stop him.

I blank out. What the hell is going on with him?!

Something slippery goes into my mouth and my senses come back to me. Fucking hell!!

I push away from him and roughly wipe my mouth. "Why the fuck did you do that Ichiro-kun?!"

"So you really don't like me? You prefer Renji-kun over me?"

"Goddamit it's not about that!" I tell him desperately, "I mean we're both guys! We're friends on top of that! Why are you doing this? You've never told me about having these feelings before."

"Because I like you. I might as well come out with it. I'm gay. I have been for a long time but that's not the point. If you don't like me then who do you like? Renji-kun?"

"I-I" I don't know what to do. What would Renji-kun do if faced with a question like that? If I say yes it will put Renji-kun in a bad position. I mean, I think for second, are we really even dating by any standards? Does he reay even like me anyway? What if all he'd done was just an act? What if it's true, what Ichiro-kun said about Renji-kun controlling my life? Should I believe Renji-kun?

What the hell is really going on between us? I realize, even though Renji-kun might not feel the same way, I still like him. I don't know when I became so sure of that but,even if Renji-kun doesn't accept me, I still like him. He made me fall for him.

I take in a small breath and sigh, I look Ichiro-kun in the eyes. "I love Renji-kun." I feel wretched looking into his eyes and seeing his expression change to a less favorable one but its the truth that he has to hear.

The bell rings and I want to escape from all of this. "I have to go." I speed down the stairs to my class.

Sitting there in class with all these thoughts running through my mind unnerves me. Ichiro-kun said that he's been day for a long time... If I like Renji-kun and since he's a guy, doesn't that make me like him? Gay?

My class are over and I pack up quickly to go to the trains. I don't want to see Ichiro-kun right now.
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Ohlala. ;) avoiding him now are we?

River632