The Essence Of A True Being

Eight.

I knew he saw me. It felt that he saw through me and noticed how fast my heart was beating. He's walking over now and my hands are shaking. I don't know why he's taking interest in me but he is. What happened to the other girl? Why would he leave her so quickly and come to me? Only he wasn't. She was there and beckoned him to her. I'm not of interest anymore and I need to be okay with it but I'm not. I fell for him the moment I saw him and he's with another. I'll never be his and I don't know why I can't process that. He should be out of my mind and my heart shouldn't speed up when he's near me but it does and I can't control it. Trying to convince myself he isn't worth it Doesn't work anymore and I'm finding comfort in a friend. He tells me that he's not worth it, even though it Doesn't  work. He tells me he doesn't  pay attention to me, even though it doesn't work. I only trust two or three people and he is one of them.

The cold morning air chilled my bones as I solemnly walked to school. I couldn't think of what would happen with Jackson or him. An old best friend came back and I don't know how to handle it. I miss her but the pain she caused to me is unforgivable.

I am psychotic, My mind is insane,  and my body is broken. I am going to keep fighting although Blurryface is screaming at me to give up, but I won't. It's hard and I'm going to get hurt fighting, but I will never give up.

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Okay I had to say Blurryface because it's really been on my mind lately and the songs and I love Twenty One Pilots. I'm almost to 200 reads now so thank you so much for voting and reading, I love you guys 💕 also I wrote this chapter around 1am so it's not my very best but I tried and I hope you enjoy it.