The Essence Of A True Being

Five

The leaves crackled loudly under my feet as I walked through the forest. Thoughts flooded my mind and it seemed as though I would drown, but I was eternally trapped just on the verge of loosing oxygen. I don't understand how nobody can see it. I can laugh along with my friends and make stupid jokes, but they never seem to notice the emptiness in my eyes. The real happiness had left my body years ago in 3rd grade. Ever since then it's been downhill and occasionally I'll find someone but they always leave me. Wether it's moving, they find someone else, or simply get tired of me, they always leave. In fact I can remember when I was in 3rd grade, I was sitting on a bench crying to myself because nobody wanted to play with me at recess. I thought I had a group of friends, but they abandoned me. Every day they turned more and more against me when it finally got to physical. They tripped me and hit me, along with words. I can still hear their voices in my head as if it happened yesterday. I remember being scared for my life when they asked each other who they wanted to shoot, and they all pointed at me. It was a difficult time but I managed to make it through the year. Year 4 and 5 weren't any better, I was still bullied and hurt by people I thought were my friends. And I'm so incredibly afraid that jackson, hayley, and lacy will leave me one day, although I already know they will.

I didn't know when I got home let alone turned around, but I ended up in my bed the light shining though the window. I rolled back over in bed, not wanting to wake up and actually see people, but I knew I had to. I finally hauled myself up and for dressed, as well as did my hair and makeup. Walking swiftly down the hallway, I opened the front door and started my way to hell.

Upon arriving, I casually walked down the sidewalk and through the large double doors. I prayed to every god in existence that today I wouldn't see...him. But of course that never works. I saw him smoothly walking down the hallway with his friends. I bowed my head, not wanting to look into his beautifully horrible eyes. He passed without a single word thankfully. As I went through my day, nobody really gave me a second glance, not even lacy or Hayley. It's a good thing they didn't though, I would have been bitchy, seeing as though I'm not in the mood to talk. Each class passes quicker then the last and it was finally time to go home. When I saw my house I sprinted up the steps and almost tripped over my own feet. What I saw standing before me took my breath away and made my heart skip a beat.

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