Fleeting

lost love

Hello, it's me. I know it's been way too long since I've posted anything on here and I am terribly sorry for this. 2015 has been a busy year for me and I think 2016 will be too but I'll try my best to update this one shot collection. 

As a heads up, this one shot is of a gay couple so if you're against homosexuality please leave and not read this because I really don't have time to deal with your hate. 

Anyways, this one shot is very much inspired by Troye Sivan songs, Lost Boy and Too Good, if you want to get to the specifics. I high recommend checking out his album Blue Neighbourhood, if you haven't yet because I absolutely love it :) [i guess it's really obvious that I'm a troye fan now, no shame tbh]

I guess that's all for this author's note, if you have any thoughts or opinions please don't be shy to comment something and I'll reply to it as soon as possible. Please vote if you liked this because it makes me very very happy :)

ps. I hope you like the new title of this collection/book thing 

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Joe watches the smile fall from Matt's face and he feels his heart sink along with it. Matt looks confused at first, then laughs because he thinks that Jos's just joking but deep down he knows this is far from a joke.

"Real funny Joe." Matt's laugh is forced as he walks closer and playfully slaps his boyfriend on the shoulder though the tension around them is anything but fun. "Now let's go." He turns his back and walks away but Joe reaches out to grab his hand, stopping him in his tracks.

"I'm not joking Matty." The boy's words sound firm but on the inside he's trying so hard to not collapse and shatter into a billion pieces. "We're over." At his words, Matt snatches his hand out of Joe's grip and turns to face him. It's obvious that he's shaking but Joe's not sure if it's from him trying not to cry or from anger, he's hoping its the latter.

"I don't know what game you're playing at but I'm already tired from the long day at uni so can you just please drop it? Let's just go out for dinner." Matt's eyes are pleading for Joe to agree, to just forget whatever he's trying to do. Joe is trying not to look into those green eyes that he's fallen in love with over the months because he knows one look will unravel him. One look will make him think everything is fine, he'll start to believe that this relationship can actually work.

"I'm not joking Matt, you know how I am. I just don't settle down with anyone-"

"Bullshit." Joe moves his gaze from the ground to Matt's face, his boyfriend has his fists clenched at his sides. "Don't you dare continue that fucking bullshit with me Joe. I know you don't mean it, it's the doubt isn't it? I swear we can get through this," Matt takes a few steps towards Joe and desperately tries to figure out what is going on in his boy's head.

Joe takes two steps back and shakes his head. "You don't get it, Matty! This relationship we have? It's not going to last." He's at the verge of shouting now but he's just so tired - so tired of trying to fight for something that was bound to end no mater how hard he tried. He runs his fingers through his hair angrily and Matt's eyes soften at the sight of his distressed boyfriend.

"Babe, we can get through whatever this is. We'll get through it together." He says in a soft voice and slowly walks towards Joe once again but he stops when Joe raises both his hands in front of him.

"Don't come any closer." Joe's voice is soft, only slightly louder than a whisper. "You need to go." He says a bit louder this time and looks up at Matt, hazel eyes staring into green ones. "You need to leave right now."