Fleeting

I Want To Love You

 Hey, anyone around? I know I have not updated in forever and I have no excuses. This one shot has been in my drafts since july but I can't recall why I never posted it but here you go!

This is the longest one short I have ever written (almost 4000 words like woah) so I hope this can make up for my absence.

The tittle is shitty af but the actual one shot isn't as bad (at least I hope it isn't)

WARNING : There is quite a bit of swearing in parts

ps. I have a huge exam coming up so I won't be updating anything for a while. I'll probably be back at the end of October. I hope that all of you will still be here :) 

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 Why the hell is he here? He has no reason to be here. Maybe he'll give up after a while. I'm sure he will, right?  

I'm currently hiding behind the door even though I know he can't possibly see me even if I peek through the window. I know he's still out there and I mentally scold myself for being a pushover as I turn to open the door.

I look at him with the best smile I could pull, telling myself that just because he is here doesn't mean anything. Nothing. Nope. Zero.

"Hey." He says after a while and we just stand there for a couple minutes, unsure of what to do. I let out a sigh and look down to my feet.

"Why are you here Jones?"

"Cam. You always called me Cam." He says and I freeze. Why did he have to say that? I don't say anything and I hear him groan.

I look up to see him running his hands through his hair. He didn't do it like he normally does. His usual perfect quiff is abandoned and instead he has a bed head thing going on. Now that I think about it, he looks really tired. He still looks so good-

Oh my god, what the hell am I thinking. I push all the thoughts of him out of my mind.

Get yourself together.

"Are you going to come in?"

"Did I do something wrong?"

We both say at the same time and I can feel my face heat up. "You didn't do anything Cam." Exactly, you didn't do anything.

"You're lying." I flinch at the tone he's using and let my next words spill out without much thought.

"I think we should take a break."

"Why-"

"You didn't do anything Cam, I just don't think we are working anymore. Its better this way, trust me." He opens his mouth to say something but I beat him to it. "If you have nothing else then I'll see you at school tomorrow Cam."

"Lia-"

"I have a lot work to do Cam." I say in a tired tone, knowing he will go away when I do. He gives me one last look before finally walking away. I close the door immediately and my feet gave up.

I fall to the floor with my back leaning on the door. I did the right thing. We should have never happened anyways but why does it feel like my heart just got ripped out of my chest.

/./

I've been avoiding Cam for the past week, don't ask me why. I won't be able to give you an answer. I just know that if I see him again I will blurt out everything and my life will be ruined.