I Work For One Direction

Chaptet 33

It had been a week since I had touch and kiss Harry in public. Eleanor and I left together and had. Nice sleep over at my place. It was nice of her to do that. It was like she became my best friend over night. I could tell why Lou was so in love with the girl. She cared so much about my feelings even though she just met me. We had a really fun time. We ordered pizza and watched some horror movies and chick flicks. We talked about Harry and what was going on. She gave real good advice that I tend to follow.

"I don't know El. It's like I don't even know him anymore. He's just there. He's not Harry. He doesn't care. I didn't ask for any of this. I didn't ask to feel this way about him. I was happy with what he had and he took it as something more and it freaked him out." I said to her with a few tears dripping down.

She sighed and embraced me in a hug. "You know I can tell that Harry is just as much hurt as you are. You should have seen his face when you kissed his cheek."

I unraveled myself from the hug and wiped my tears. "Yeah well if he's so hurt then why isn't he even trying to do something about it. Why isn't he trying to fix it. I'm not Miss. Fix-it. I can't have everything weigh down on me all the time."

"I have a question. If Harry did apologize and did tell you how he felt about you and showed you how sorry he was, would you want to pick up where you left off?" She asked.

Boy was that a good question. I had no idea what I would do if that happened. "I don't know El. For some reason I don't think I could ever forgive him."

"Then try to forget him. The month will be up before you know it. Just a few public appearances and then he'll be touring the world for an entire year. It'll give you time to heal and focus on yourself so you need to think about that. Otherwise you'll keep burying yourself. Before you know it you'll be 10 feet underground and won't be able to climb out."

"I know." I said and sighed. "You're like Dr. Phill. That's exactly what Lou would have told me, I know it." I said and smiled.

I snapped back into reality as the oven dinged. I stood up and grabbed my mitts and took out the lasagna. I was finally done with dinner and waited for the boys to come home and eat. They had stayed at the studio a lot longer than they thought they would.

I set the table and made everything look nice. I had brewed a lot of tea and stuck it in the fridge to cool in the morning. These boys need to stop drinking sugary drinks. They're on their way to diabetes. Well Niall is anyway.

I sat back down and turned on the tv as I flipped through the channels. "Boring." Click. "Seen it." Click. "Almost over." Click. "See it." Click. "Boring." Click. Click. Click. I shrugged and turned off the tv. What could I do for the next few minutes? I grabbed my phone and went on twitter. I'm always on twitter lately and I hate myself for it. I feel so much worse when I get off of twitter.

@1D_Me: Looks like Harry and Jess are doing good :D

Me and Harry? Doing good? As if...

@HarryFlackMe: They seriously need to just stop acting already. Everyone saw the picture and everyone knows they've broken up.. Finally.

Well fuck you too bitch.

Twitter has really made me into a negative nancy.

@Jessettitrightthere : Waiting for the goblins to come home. Missed my little Harry goblin. LOL

Sigh. I was trying way to hard lately. Pretending to be with some one is a lot of work. It's like faking an accent or a personality.i just felt like a liar.

"Honey!!! I'm home!!!!!" Louis yelled.

I smirked. I didn't have the energy to respond like I used to. I didn't have the energy to do anything else. "Hey cuties."