I've been played a fool [Jalex] - Chapter 1

I've been played a fool [Jalex] - Chapter 5

We're finally getting somewhere, did anyone expect Jack's mum to be dieing? I'm sort of making this stuff up now as I go along, it's giving me something to do I suppose!:')

P.S- I'm back from my nan's now so I may write less often, however I have a little over  two weeks left of my holiday, and shall fit in as much as I can!

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"What do you mean your mum is dieing?" Alex said, walking up and down the street.

Jack pulled his front door shut so his mum couldn't hear, Jack never trusted anyone, not even at his old college so telling Alex about something to trivial was hard.

"She's got cancer in the lungs Alex, the hospital said it was too late to save her, she's got a matter of months" Jack trailed off, holding back his tears, trying not to cry in front of his friend. Jack was the emotional one of the two and took everything to heart.

"I'm sorry Jack, you should've said, I was stupid to kiss you" Alex pulled Jack into a hug as if to tell him it was alright to cry, but Jack couldn't but more importantly he wouldn't.

"It's okay, It's my fault for not saying" Jack spoke up, putting on a brave face, but in his eyes the world was crashing down in front of him.

"May I ask you something, Jack?"

"I guess so" Jack replied, expecting a question related to his mum's illness.

"Did you like it?" Alex said, looking at the ground.

"Like what?.." Jack tilted his head in a puzzled manor.

"When I kissed you?" Alex said, hopeful.

"It was different Alex I guess, I didn't know you was gay, It did feel right though.." Jack smiled a bit before continuing. "What dreams did you have Alex?"

"I Uh, I had dreams where sometimes I'd be with women, and other I'd be with men, mostly men"

Alex didn't realise it himself, but he was falling for Jack and fast. Jack was only meant to be someone to help Alex get his head around his feelings, not for Alex's heart to skip a beat each time his eyes caught the younger boy. He knew it wasn't right, because it wasn't really love, was it? It was just Alex's brain telling him it was. Oh how he just wanted to talk to someone about it, like Rian, but he was away...

Then again, Rian always dropped things for Alex like a bullet shooting from a gun.

"Oh, I see.." Jack kept quiet about it, he wasnt' a stupid boy, even though he acted like a kid. He got the feeling Alex may not actually love Jack, but the boys heart tore in pieces when he thought about it. Looks like he was falling for Alex as much as Alex was falling for Jack.

"I better get going..I'm truly sorry for about your mum, I guess I'll see you tomorrow?" Alex spoke up, breaking the awkward silence and keeping his face just centimeters away from Jack's.

They both knew they wanted to connect their lips and feel the electric pass through their bodies, even if it was for a few seconds, but the timing was wrong, so so wrong.  Alex just walked away and Jack stood there for a while before heading inside and sitting beside his dieing mum, playing with her hair and kissing her head every once in a while.

-Alex's P.O.V-

I grabbed my phone as soon as I got in, my mum wasn't home yet and I was alone with my dog, buster. My speedy fingers dialed Rian's number, and I prayed to God that he would pick up.

"Hey Rian?" I spoke up, as I heared my phones bleeping connect to his phone.

"Sup Bro, how's life in Baltimore?" I heard the boy mock, obviously having a whale of a time in somewhere hot and luxiourious.

"Actually, I need to talk to you about Jack.." I said through gritted teeth.

After explaining the whole situation, and I mean whole, Rian was nothing but disgusted with me and he wasn't ashamed to let me know either, the words cut like a knife and his last sentence stuck in my head that repeated itself over, and over and over.

"You're sick Alex, you need to let Jack know where he stands because as far as I can tell, he actually loves you, and if you don't tell him in the next 4 days, believe me I will"

He hung up after that and I slid down my wall and let my salty tears flow down my pale cheeks.

I don't know if I love Jack, I mean there was no doubt in my mind that I liked him, but I wasn't sure if I was able to be that commited and turn gay, it's a big change to life.

As soon as I had these thoughts, my mum came through the doors and lightly tapped my door.

She must of heard my whimpers.

"Alex hunny, are you okay?" She spoke softly before entering.

She seemed to be happy today, she had a warm and welcoming smile on her face and that's all I needed before I broke down.

"Oh mummy, I'm such a fool"