Thoughts Can Kill

Do you really know me?

When you look at me

What exactly do you see?

You see a smiling girl laughing her heart out

And you think Its me joking around

You watch me being cheerful

And you believe I'm Blissful

You believe I'm happy and all

And if I ever stop

It's then when you'll ask

"You feel ok?" and I'm going to say

"Just a little sleepy" and every day

Is going like this:

With me falling apart

And with you smiling at that

So sometimes I wish

"Please let them notice

How broken I am

And let them lend me a hand

Cause I know I won't last

If this nightmare keeps up"

So now I'll ask you once again

When you look at me

Do you see my real self

Or the image of someone else?

Cause if you can't see

The waterfall of salt tears

Hidden behind my laugh,

My bleeding heart

With her million pieces around

And the blood falling to the ground

From all the scars I've done

In my body and soul

Then you will never understand

Who I really am

And how I truly feel

What I want and what I need

What makes me happy

And what makes me sad

Because all the tears I've shed

Comes from my dark

From that specific thing

That makes myself hated to me

From my inner self

You'll never come to see...